The imperfect perfectionist

WOW 2012 ALREADY.

2012-01-19T22:44:00.000-08:00

Hi , IM BACK AFTER SO FUCKING LONG.

Pls try not to read my past posts cos i find them ZZZ =.=

actually I just need a space for me to fill up in case I store too much inside. lol.

It's a cold cold day , freezing in school. Feeling weird at the same time.

Sometimes I wonder, is it a good or bad thing to know the truth ?

the truth always hurts, but, is it better to know or be kept in the dark and find out only later ?

I'm a crazy paranoid insecure person,i admit.

And i always dig out information which isn't nice to know, but i still go and dig.

ITCHY HANDS LA. then everytime I find out sth , I feel confused. confused of what to do next.

Sometimes I scold myself for being sucha stalker or kpo. lol but thats me.

Right now i feel like im in my own world , blogging after so long,starving .

Talking about starving, Im extremely conscious of my looks and how people view me,

im not perfect. But im trying very hard !

Imagine an ugly fat bitch in secondary school lol.

When people comment about my outer appearance,i feel hurt somehow idk why .

I feel so useless ,financial accounting today, i thought i understand, end up im stumped when questions were thrown to me. I really dont wanna think about whether i will retake module anot,i deserve it somehow, but i guess im slow when it comes to math stuff.

Whats worse,i feel that i dont help other people as much as other people do, i havent achieved anything big in my life, I havent really helped someone ALOT, never done so many things.

Im a selfish,self centered asshole.

Im always so protective of myself , im always doubting everyone. I always think people do sth for a motive.

I think even when i die, nobody cries for me cos i deserve it.

so longgg

2010-06-01T05:49:00.000-07:00

so long since i updated.
My life has taken a turn and im kinda sure i wont regret it.
No jobs are ever easy,i know that,
but the motivation comes from the money im taking overseas .
wanna go Maldives so much,so peaceful & romantic there .
but i guess my first stop will be somewhere i can afford for now .
will be gg back to poly next year , dono why my parents just don understand a fcuk about what i want .
But well , im used to it anyways .
so now, gonna save $$$$$$$$$$$$$ and go overseas :D
guess i will be gg overseas a few times this year if i can.

ouh

2010-05-23T20:10:00.000-07:00

It's back to haunt me again .
Medicine = useless
somehow nowadays i prefer smoking red , gives me more amount of relaxation.
I don't put as high hopes as before now,because everytime i do,i end up fcuking disappointed.
I can't use the word tired anymore , because im tired of being tired.

:|

2010-05-16T03:33:00.000-07:00

may have adopted a more positive outlook in life ?
man,should i just endure for 3 more years in school or do the things i wanna do before i die .

speechless

2010-05-13T00:26:00.000-07:00

nothing to say . IMMA speechless

:(

2010-05-08T21:49:00.000-07:00

I feel so complicated inside .
I DON WANT !
it feels different , feels weird.
after so many stupid & childish quarrels .
they say the r/s usually gets stronger after that but things are turning out the wrong way ,maybe cos we handled it wrongly.
my energy is drained ..
im sick of pretending to smile when i feel unhappy.
I'm gonna do something about it ,because i love you.
this cannot go on any further , the fucked up feelings of mine.
but it takes 2 hands to clap.
are you willing to put in the effort & clap with me ?

FML .

2010-05-06T06:01:00.000-07:00

Seriously, i wanna quit school and take up beauty courses outside.
should i go ahead with my rash decision or continue being the typical s'porean studying to get a diploma to survive .
I should get a life now,since the person i wanted most to care,didn't .
nevermind ,im gonna stop whining alr,cos im getting irritating.

>:(

2010-05-04T04:32:00.000-07:00

I only got three words to say : FUCK MY LIFE .
I know it sounds pessimistic or whatever ,but ,im feeling exactly this way right now,right at this moment,and again im alone in my room whining about it .
Why can't there be like anyone beside me when im suddenly PMS-ing .
I want time to stop now ,i don't want tomorrow to come,no no no !!!
Ouh, just fuck it .
why am i saying all these crap here,since ppl won't bother to notice or whatever .
Yes,im seeking attention now,that's what i need now,care and attention .
I'm greedy , curse me .

Yo what's up my niggas .

2010-05-03T05:19:00.000-07:00

I'm so nervous about tmr !
omfg , what should i wear ?
formal teacher attire =.= no shorts,no slippers,no jeans FML .
so tired these few days ,didn't sleep well ,which idk why .
heard that there may be no school for the whole of next week cos of E learning week,
OMG DEAR GOD,I PRAY THAT IT'S TRUE PLEASE :)))))))
How i dread Wednesdays and especially Thursdays,longest days in school,longest time to get the fuck home .
That day i poured everything out in my heart , about my 'nice' lil family .
Somehow i feel that im getting more and more 'fragile' as the days go by .
more prone to getting teared eyes .
I don't want that,i hate myself for being sucha weakling !
maybe it's some sort of an impact left during my pathetic childhood days .
All that beatings ,cursing,swearing was really enough ,enough .
I wanna be how i was after all those ,immune to stuff .
But it's not easy,cos im a human with emotions everyone has .
And when YOU said : they don't understand,I understand .
I felt ecstatic for a moment, yet fearful that there will be a day you wouldn't wanna understand anymore . But im really gald there's finally YOU in my 'emo' days when i needed someone , cos you weren't in any of those days before when you're busy or when i didn't wanna let you know in order not to add on to your burden .
I ought to feel blessed right ? cos i do HAVE someone there,and not just anyone ,but a special someone .
How i wish time would just stop everytime i'm with you . Do you feel the same ?
Okay guys,sorry to whine so much in my posts .. But i guess LIFE= life isn't fucking easy . haha !

gosh

2010-05-02T01:02:00.000-07:00

It's sad Sunday again ,tmr Monday blues .
OH MAN, Why isn't there a holiday for poly students tmr ?!
I don wanna go school :(((((((((((((((((((((
I want my beauty sleep , i want to finish the Breaking dawn book,i wanna see my mushroom . LOL .

:(

2010-04-30T22:22:00.000-07:00

Bad night for sleeping,why do nightmares just love to be with me while im sleeping.
I'm always feeling real unhappy,real upset,or real ''emo'' after i woke up.
Is there any way to stop these ? or anyone to be the someone to take me away from those nightmares..
weekends always pass by so quickly, WHY :(((
i like my class but i don like school cos of the assignments and all..
omfg,and especially the fucking long distance to and fro.
IM feeling super uber stressed and worn out .
Any kind souls to console me ?

A LONG DAY

2010-04-29T05:38:00.000-07:00

OMFG,i pulled through today which a an extremely longggg day .
Im so worn out ,and yet ppl still have the energy to push and squeeze in trains .
i really hope SMRT will consider reconstructing trains to become longer or have more seats .
and i really hate rude typical s'poreans who don't apologise after they pushed you , FUCK .
mannn, poly life really isn't for a person like me,i regretted no taking some beauty courses outside or whatever ..
but im glad my classmates are nice .
Another issue that is bothering me is i really care about how others look at me .
As a matter of fact, I hate to pretend to be someone else .
So when ppl ask or see my smoke ,i will just continue ,
or even if they know about my nightlife and the occasional drinks i go for .
BUT,i know alot of ppl will think im 'indecent' or whatsoever ,
i mean,i just wanna be myself in front of ppl ,or even find friends who accept me for who i am .
well ,i really hope ppl will treat me like a real fren,instead of 'pretending' to be my fren .
Gosh,im realllyyy stressed up by one lil assignment ,cos i really dono how to go about doing it ,how to start ,how to research .

boring day

2010-04-27T19:22:00.000-07:00

Start school at 3 end at 5 just for S&W ?!
and tmr all theeee way till 6 :(
i'm thinking how to go about doing my individual assignment on obese children .
Maybe i should start organising my thoughts on a piece of paper first .
The worst part is actually the researching part,
cos there must be at least 5 info,and only 2 can be from the internet .
So i guess i have to head down to the library after dono how many years of not stepping into one .
I want to give it my best shot , but thinking about the word limit and the possibility of gg out of point,
it makes me shiver .
Oh man,it's just a pathetic piece of assignment !
Why am i so bothered about it ,or maybe it's because i don't want to go back to my old ways again as well as wasting precious time .
Although im still not very close to my classmates,but they're friendly,no doubt about that ,
i really hope we can be like other classes which are so bonded and united .
It's 10.30 now ,and im hungry already .
kinda looking forward to hip-hop later HAHA !
guess it should be fun with the 'lecturer' we have .
i guess i'll stop here for now ,plan plan plan .. today is all about planning ,no matter big or small .

heyaa !

2010-04-27T00:56:00.000-07:00

Okay,it has been like 1 , 2 years since i blogged ?
feel kinda weird to blog again though lol .
But , im really bored .
If you are so kind to take your time off & read my blog pls don read my archives cos they're horrible,some made me laugh and some made me wonder why i wrote those ..
okay i've like got sooo many things to say these 2 years but i'll just cut it short.
So i manage to clear my O levels and proceed to poly .
But i don't really enjoy poly life ,i missed the days working in Club NaNa,
it was one of the happiest moments of my life .
Maybe because of the env , and got to know alot of people .
And most importantly ,i got to know someone who's part of my life now :)
well, okay i guess there are some point of time in my life that fucks me but i couldn't get over it at first , because there wasnt any form of commmunication or solving of problems .
But now i know everytime things happen,i shouldn't run away from it & should face it .
okay it's damn easy to say,but effing hard to do .
People judge me by my looks thinking im strong, but no .
I may be damn stupid to admit im weak or fragile inside , but that's me .
and pls don't ever mess with my heart be it friends ,family or boyfriend .
you don't know what will happen .
I can be very positive and crazy at times ,
but when im pessimistic,i will do the craziest things ever ,maybe it isn't a good thing but that's my way of dealing with things i guess .
Anyway there are SOO much more things i wanna type,but im lazy LOL.
so i'll just end this post off with the hope that everything will remain as it is ,as smoothly as now .

Lastly,don fuck around with me,thank you .

(:

2009-07-14T19:52:00.000-07:00

get to know yourself better. try it ,very true for me QUIZ:http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education: You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you: You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

LOVE QUIZ : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test80.aspx?q=b

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

:D

2009-07-14T03:56:00.001-07:00

sunday PULAU UBIN :DDDD

at the ferry terminal . . .

hongkiat helping me spray insect repellent !

on the bumboat :D

what are we pointing at ?

WELCOME TO PULAU UBIN (:

too tired to cycle alr ))):

what am i looking at ?

On the steps of the beautiful ''house''

advertising 100plus LOL

and again ...

the best place ever !

we copy the angmoh beside us HAHA !

If only i stay here ..

peace !

resting ..

deserted small island opp the jetty

inside the ''house'' which is a visitor's centre

on the ROOFTOP =X

on top of the mangrove viewing tower O.O

Shagg faces . . .

:D

2009-07-09T02:57:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY SENTOSA DAY ! :D

his coconut & ''dick'' nice ? HAHAHA !!!

LOL .

the guys

O.O

SEXY BUTT EH HAHA !

FLIRTING AUNTIES . HAHA

JANICE & KOREAN GUY !

KISSING THE COCONUT TREE

SMILE !

CARRYING CHINA TOURIST LOL !!!!!

GROUP PHOTO :D

JANICE & ANGMOH

DON MISUNDERSTAND !!!

COS WE WERE PLAYING TRUE OR DARE .

SMILEEE !

TIME FOR FOOD !!

YUMMY YUMMY

IM FULL

(:

2009-07-06T05:26:00.002-07:00

will update when i get the photos ! :D
sure alot to update about .
tmr sch ))):

2009-07-06T05:26:00.001-07:00

(:

2009-07-04T03:39:00.000-07:00

Sometimes people may wonder, why is the world so unfair to them ?
but actually there are ppl worse off than them .
Sometimes when ppl walk through your own path halfway battered with bruises ,they just wanna give up .
Sometimes ppl feel that the everyone let them down ,and blame the world .
I was wondering,it is thier own minds that is playing tricks on them to make them think pessimistically .
you have the power to control your minds and emotions,why not do that ?
Its difficult,but willpower can overcome anything i believe .
my life is kinda boring now, but at least its peaceful .
in a way its good so that i can fully concentrate on my studies .
that is the one & only thing on my mind now .
because i don live for ppl,i live for myself .
haha,okay i wish my classmates good luck for the upcoming prelims ! :D

Chok dee ! means good luck in Thai (:

Do what you love & fuck the rest

(:

2009-06-29T04:56:00.000-07:00

quotes i got from photobucket :)

my personal favourite :
Do what you love & fuck the rest .
-lil miss sunshine

`its hard to tell who has your back ,from who has it long enough just to stab you in it
-nicole richie

some famous ones :
All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on.
-henry ellis

Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first.
-Mark twain

Life is a dream for the wise, a game for the fool, a comedy for the rich, a tragedy for the poor.
Sholom Aleichem

Life is a series of collisions with the future; it is not the sum of what we have been, but what we yearn to be.
Jose Ortega y Gasset

Literature is mostly about having sex and not much about having children. Life is the other way round.
-David Lodge

:(

2009-06-26T00:52:00.000-07:00

I took a different route in my life .
Its gonna change , there may be obstacles or turns .
but i guess i can overcome these .
wish me luck in changing & improving myself !

Life is short, break the rules !

(:

2009-06-15T19:19:00.000-07:00

Wonder why the wedding ring is worn on the 4th finger ?
here's why !
Thumb represents your Parents
Second (Index) finger represents your Siblings
Middle finger represents your-Self
Fourth (Ring) finger represents your Life Partner
Last (Little) finger represents your children
Firstly, open your palms (face to face), bend the middle fingers and hold them together -
back to back
Secondly, open and hold the remaining three fingers and the thumb - tip to tip
Now, try to separate your thumbs (representing the parents)...,
they will open, because your parents are not destined to live with you lifelong,
and have to leave you sooner or later
Please join your thumbs as before and separate your Index fingers (representing siblings)...., they will also open, because your brothers and sisters will have their own families and will have to lead their own separate lives.
Now join the Index fingers and separate your Little fingers (representing your children)....,
they will open too, because the children also will get married and settle down on their own some day.
Finally, join your Little fingers, and try to separate your Ring fingers (representing your spouse).
You will be surprised to see that you just CANNOT....., because Husband & Wife have to remain together all their lives - through thick and thin!!

2009-06-12T04:39:00.000-07:00

THIS POST IS ONLY AGAINST SPECIFIC PEOPLE.
AND ITS THE BLOGGER RIGHTS TO POST WHAT THEY WANT . IF YOU FEEL OFFENDED OR DISGUSTED FEEL FREE TO CLOSE THE WINDOW , THANK YOU (:

FUCK THOSE SICK CHINA BIRDS LA !
DISGRACE TO THE CHINESE POPULATION.
No wonder westerners look down on chinese
guess what ?!
A town in Canton is now on trend taking baby herbal soup
to increase health and sexual performance/stamina.
WTF ?! why must it have to be babies ?
and they are eating their own kind !
even if you are poor you sell your body la why must it be the innocent babies.
ask the wife to be a prostitute instead since you were the ones who gave the babies life !
If you all didnt FUCK SO MUCH,there wont be this outcome of having to sell your babies ,your own flesh & blood !
TRY COOKING YOUR DICK AND EAT LA GUYS WHO TAKE THIS ''HERBAL SOUP'' !
wanna increase sexual performace go eat Viagra la !
fucking hell , fuck fuck fuck.
hope these inhumane people FUCK TILL THEY DIE OF EXHAUSTION OR INFECTION OR AIDS !!!!
or go drill a hole in the wall fuck yourselves till you die man.
don drag pathetic stupid DUMB women into the picture make them sell their own babies to make SOUP !

(:

2009-06-08T05:25:00.000-07:00

i once received this email .
its DAMN GOREY !
LOOK IF YOU DARE !!

Human parts processing factory (like sardines)
A factory in Russia harvesting kidneys, eye corneas and other human body parts for sale. Bodies are collected from drunk drivers who died in car accidents, people staying alone who had frozen to death in the cold winter, criminals on death row or unexplained death and unclaimed bodies. Some body parts and bones are sold to Universities in various parts of the world. Leg bones are exported to pharmacies in Ireland and Germany to make tooth-fillings which is popular in Europe .

):

2009-06-06T08:12:00.000-07:00

A lame post :
this whole week : stuck in school .
was hectic,was tiring,was stressful .
yeah so ended up home late .
1 more week & lydia's gonna come back.
3 more weeks and there is exams .
4 more months and there is the most impt exam .
ugh , cant time just stop & let me sleep for as long as i like ?
since i prefer to stay home and watch the drama nowadays .
or either that puff a lil when im bored.
simply no life at all !
yeah im gonna get alife,seriously .
or i may rot before i knew it .
or become obese due to laziness O.O
and my throat and nose isnt getting better .
could i have contracted SWINE FLU ?
HAHA ! if i did ,i would be stuck in the confined room for 2 whole weeks and rot to death . LOL.
i realise alot of ppl adore Kim hyun joong
of course,he's handsome & popular .
yeah okay thats out of topic alr .
i shld stop being lame .
i shld be studying now ?
O.O

only 4 more months.
must be determined !!!!
if i give up now,its finished .

):

2009-06-03T04:41:00.000-07:00

today was kinda a sleeping day at home .
well,went to polyclinic in the morning .
then i was having cough & runny nose.
so the person ask me to wear a mask =.=
so weird to wear a mask ard can.
but the speed was faster than usual,all the ''masked'' ppl consult a doc in one room .
so we were ''confined'' in one place .
yeah,so i took my sleeping pillsand the cough syrup.
the cough syrup was damn powerful,drank 2 sips
and fell into deep sleep for 4 hrs !
and i even dreamt of happy things
but i cant rmb ))):
okay ,anw tmr must go back sch alr
then the pressure & stress is gonna come again
bear with it for 4 more months !!!! :DDD
cos im trying to aim for 15 points & below
wish me luck ! :D

(:

2009-06-01T05:50:00.000-07:00

LOL

DYING PPL ? haha

O.O

the gays ?

DREAMBOAT kim hyun joong :D

finally one burden is off the shoulder .
chinese O level is over !
but still damn worried for the results.
well,i believe god will bless us (:
let nature take its course .
2 weeks gonna go back sch ):
2 weeks of holiday left .
gotta chiong for revision alr
)))))::::

(:

2009-05-30T08:07:00.001-07:00

sian man ! i cannot upload the video of my son & yeow kiat debating. it was damn funny !
talking about how their mothers **** =.=
anw 1 more day to chinese exam,
god bless me :D
okay im gonna upload the photos i took while they were debating LOL.
its not as funny as the video though

crazy over ''BOYS OVER FLOWERS'' :DDDD

its a fairytale that will never happen in real life.

but its okay to fantasize once in awhile .

to see whether there are really such good guys LEFT out there in this Earth

:D

2009-05-27T03:22:00.000-07:00

HOT TOPIC FOR THE DAY !
guess wad ? ZF sent me a photo he took of a couple who looked VERY OBSCENE .

LOOK & YOU'IL KNOW !!

firstly, when i saw this ,its a total disgrace to the youngsters .

what they do from this angle it looked like they are having oral sex on the train . Singapore is an asian country ,what would the old ppl & kids think when they see this ?

they should to sensible enough to think that if they wanna do sth like this,just go to somewhere obscure .

although it may not be what it seems, but our ''youngsters nowadays'' reputation have been destroyed by ppl like them.

& older generation would think we are too liberal !

so i wrote there for the guy saying:''Im horny ''

if you guys cant see clearly .

if some stomper took this it would be on stomp long ago.

but anyway , please leave SOME DIGNITY FOR YOURSELVES & US !

ANYWAY PPL WATCH THIS !

@ NVSS OASIS .

(:

2009-05-24T07:27:00.001-07:00

today went to a birthday party .
then went home early cos its damn freaking hot !
i was sweating like hell , and i saw JW and some ex sch mates .
LOL . okay la nothing much to blog about.
except , tmr is sch day AGAIN ):
CHINESE INTENSIVE IS KILLING US !!!!!! __ HAHA

:D

2009-05-23T08:20:00.000-07:00

i randomly turned on Channel U when i was damn bored
and discovered a really awesome show !!!
okay its a korean show too bad i miss the first few episodes .
The show : BOYS OVER FLOWERS
two eligible guys fighting for a cute girl
i think both of them make the cut
and they are every girl's dream guy .
compare & choose ! :D

):

2009-05-22T04:23:00.000-07:00

Im so worn out !
tasting Chinese since Wed and gonna continue with it till friday .
today was the worst ! Paper 1 & 2 completed in one day .
7 periods of chinese OMFGGGG .
but its okay i have just have to grit my teeth and bear with it for 5 more days only !
then here comes the O level chinese.
I MUST GET A2 !!!! If i dont i think im gonna bang my head alr haha .
okay im gonna stop this talk about studies .

today Ms thomas showed us about a rather interesting video of SHANGRI LA .
It's not the shangri la hotel in SG don misunderstand .
Its a place where you find happiness ,peace and long life.
its kinda a myth but i believe there is still such a place in this world
maybe its at the ends of the Earth .
But if you don think of it as literally a place ,
its a place in our imagination where we find our true self ,where we find true happiness and peace that lies beneath the fucked up world we live in .
Have you guys ever felt really tired of living in a realistic world full of
wars,betrayal,lies,selfishness & hatred ?
well,i guess everyone does at times when its a point of downturn .
so why do God created us ? I guess everything has a reason and purpose behind it right ?
Some ppl come into your life for a reason ,to teach you life skills that only can be attained from experience ,when they leave it means that their mission is accomplished .
so guys,don think of a person leaving you as a bad thing ,it may be a blessing in disguise for you to find someone better or to learn from your experience .
Hatred is a very strong,whether its right to use it or not all depends on your mindset .
being indifferent is better than hating someone ,this is real true .
so learn to let go and think in a calm state of mind to reminisce about your past wrongdoings .
from here,you may find you very own Shangri la in your heart where you search for you soul,your true self. For example , a person who is using all the underhand means to get what they want may really sit down and think,and suddenly remembered that they were so sweet,innocent ppl in the past
humans are born to be pure ,but why have the humans grown up to become ppl like these ?
its may be the fact that having endured so much before,they thought being ''bad'' would make them feel better .
But its your mind which is playing tricks on you , that lead a person to become changed .
i wanna find my Shangri La too, to find true happiness and peace there .
this way,we'll be happier people right ?
and we can fufil the purpose God gave us when we're here .

xD

2009-05-20T05:02:00.000-07:00

LOL ! today after a long day of MTL intensive finally got sth to laugh about =x
i took photos of yeow kiat.
its multiple shots SO YOU WILL SEE HIS HEAD MOVING UP LOL !
im so bad. SHHH !

(:

2009-05-16T08:33:00.001-07:00

i almost cant wake up today to meet B & N in sch
haha guess im suffering from insomnia alr .
afternoon met up with my 2 cousins.
shopped ard town & bugis .
Im so happy ! in the end,
i bought a Topshop polo tee ,a high-waist jeans shorts & 2 cute tee shirts ! :D
then i got a headache as usual ):
okay im starting to get really nervous .
chinese O's is coming in 2 weeks time & i don wanna retake it again lor.
mugging mugging mugging . . . . .
wish me & my frens luck ! :D
GOD BLESS US ALL ! HAHA (x

:D

2009-05-15T10:17:00.001-07:00

hello people !
today is a friday .
Stayed back in sch but kana caught by O.A.J to do chinese .
in the end i still ran away xD
then played basketball in the rain haha .
at night,me & ZF wanted to watch Friday the 13 but its not showing anymore !
so we watched ''The Uninvited '' instead .
quite a lame show,but at least its not boring .
before the movie started we went to the ERP gantry again !
but this time its wet cos of the rain .
and i was like in a squatting position like im shitting HAHA !
& saw the gym gang LOL . sucha coincidence
then took a bounce train back and talked about alot of funny ''past'' stuff
yeah so tmr im gg to school provided i can wake up.then meeting my cousins !
okay la here are some random photos we took ! ENJOY ! :D Ciaos !

FUCK THE BLOG WHERE IS MY BACKGROUND ):

(:

2009-05-11T07:24:00.000-07:00

okay im gonna post a short post cos Nurul says my blog is very dull alr .haha !
well,lets talk about Sat .
I went out with ZF and we watched Horsemen :D
it was kinda gorey with all the killing scenes.
and the girl beside me jumped when there is a sudden loud sound effect LOL
then after which,we walked around some shopping centres and find it boring.
so i took him to where Nafiz took us that time, the ERP GANTRY !
it's a damn cool place ,watching the cars drive from above.
then talk & talked about school days blah blah blah .
after which ,we took a bounce train home.
It was kinda fun though although he may seem quiet but actually he crack funny jokes.
he told me a story bout my ex sch mate when he was sec 1 or 2 .
he got bullied by the classmates and the guy took A 20CENT COIN to cut himself!
LOL,he stared at his classmates while doing that. it was the funniest ''suicide'' story i heard .
okay la,gonna end it here now .

COUNTDOWN : 5 more months to O levels .
2 more weeks to O level Chinese :S
see ya'll !

everything is starting to fall in place (:
Nostalgia & reminisce

(:

2009-04-28T04:34:00.000-07:00

COUNTDOWN : 6 MORE MTHS AFTER O'S
sorry guys,i cant upload the fight videos cos its simply too lagg .

love my imperfections , love me,accept me for who i am or i will diss you .

):

2009-04-20T23:10:00.001-07:00

TOP OF THE ERP .

TIME FLIES .

SEE YA'LL AFTER O'S !

(:

2009-02-03T04:08:00.000-08:00

totally moodless these few days.
ytd went to east coast with sis .
felt much better and woke up late today ,
then went to NP to celebrate Yvonne's birthday ,
came back home again.
after a few days of thinking,i have made a decision.
but i have to really firm in my stand this time .
really gonna work hard for O levels.
since i have come so far , i cant give up now .
maybe wont blog for a very long time till after Os ?
(:

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2009-01-29T18:52:00.000-08:00

And so i skipped school for half a day.
thoughts came running through my mind since yesterday .
sometimes , people get fucked in their miserable lives
while other are enjoying the sweetness of happiness .
people always ask, why is the world so unfair ?
I was thinking about this question too .
but i guess i cannot ''self-pity'' cos its a kind of action when you give up on yourself .
my body is not well , it may be the emotional hurt that is caused to cause this physical hurt .
yesterday,i was enaging in self-pity .
like what i did the other time , i drank the cough syrup again .
so that i can sleeeeep and not to think about any other stuffs .
i look down on myself for being like this ,
but sometimes ppl just cant help it bout the things they do .
If im gonna start anew , everything will HAVE to go smoothly as i planned
but is it possible ?
well , there is no point to say so much right now .

I still hate you for what you did ,
i wont forgive you again.
cause i made a wrong choice to forgive ,
as you proved to me that you are not the guy i used to know .
totally different .

(:

2009-01-28T06:07:00.000-08:00

Still in CNY mood .
not school today for me of course
haha , 1st day went to relatives home.
then at night went Zhengda'a house to drink .
after that went rounding for like really one round without the helmet.
then cab home .
2nd day, went to relatives house again.
after that that stupid banana come my house .
then went home early.
today went banana's house .
after that headed to Sakura for boss's treat (:
hongbao very big haha .
okay tmr is school day again.
fuck . i totally hate my mixed emotions now .

US & ah gong

me,my ma de & fat ass bro

the stupid cousins

(:

2009-01-22T04:44:00.000-08:00

Hey guys.
wont be updating much.
mugging for O's now .
but will update for CNY.
maybe gonna go Zhengde's house to drink or sth for CNY.
lol , help his mum cook . so lame .
cos the coincidence is his mum work the same place as me
These few days were boring in school.
2 mock exams just passed .
and im gonna fail haha .

The topic for today :LOVE
anyone knows how to define love ?
to couples in love ,it is a fairytale .
to singles, it is a dream to reach out to .
some ppl may think love is unconditional,but turns out its the other way round .
but to me, its just a dumb thing make ppl lose their minds for the other party and even to the extent of commiting suicide .
ppl will tend to feel afraid to trust again
thats what they say ''once bitten,twice shy ''
so if you ever want to step into a r/s, think twice .
is he gonna take care of you for life & can you trust him ?
If you are just playing with the person,then stop wasting your time . because in the end, you get nothing good out of it .
The big question is how do some married last till old age ?
simple , it is faith & commitment .
when they register their marriage , its for life.
and they take the vow that will stay with them forever .
but to youngster like us,the old goes and the new one comes right ? but they may not really like the new party .
the reason is simple,when you feel empty in your heart and alone . you cant get used to the life when nobody texts or call you everyday, nobody show concern for you .
so in order to fill up this gap,a new one comes .
another problem with r/s is the third party.
in soap operas we always see the man finding another woman .
well , nowadays even the woman are finding another man.
Its a mistake , yes ,but why do they do that ?
this is a problem b/w the both parties .
be it communication, or cos of new excitement .
For youngsters in ''love'' , they don last.
cos its just pure infatuation .
and the hormones that make bothe parties attracted to each other . after some time, the feeling fades off .
they always say '' I love you ''
but do they really mean it ?
most of the time,no.
cos after some time,its a break up .
so you know love is a thing that can make ppl happily crazy or mentally crazy .
It is somehow a scary thing in some way .
you never know when your heart is gonna be stabbed .
maybe not for the first few mths of happiness ,it always comes after that .
so people, think carefully before you commit yourself into a r/s
you always have your right one waiting for you in some corner of the world .
but sometimes,the time is not right yet .

(:

2009-01-16T02:46:00.000-08:00

another moodless day.
slept till 5plus .
and woke up feeling groggy .
I wanna go drink , drink, drink !
who wants to come along ?

cos you're hot and you're cold .
I hate it !

(:

2009-01-14T19:45:00.000-08:00

hello babes & dudes (:
Just a random post of my thoughts .
No bitches & bastards allowed to view
LOL .
I was viewing other ppl's blog , i mean my ex classmates .
I saw how they have such lovely boyfriends to dote on them .
well,i guess everyone's love life is diff .
you don always get the good guy .
and i have never really gotten one very great guy in my life .
maybe i tot there was ,but turned out that i was wrong.
So what if i experienced being in a r/s many times .
I never really think before i accept a r/s .
well , that is ''love'' for you .
Love is sth hard to define .
I saw how they are doing so well in polys or JCs .
I felt really jealous,why is my life different .
i guess it was the path i chose myself ,cant blame anyone
ended up having to take O's at only 18 .
and my mum is scolding me for not gg school today,
I hate it la. FUCK YOU !
YA YA i always do this , is my attitude prob .
you cant stand it anymore i also cant okay ,
you think im the only one who have nonsense huh ?
FUCK ! one day nvr go school is the end of the world is it ?
is like hello ? you think i want this ?
did you put yourself in my shoes .
yes i admit i cant take stress thats my bad point .
But i just cant accept the fact that i may flung my O's .
oh my f**** , don wanna say anymore (:
Anyway i found out my frenster was finally deleted yay (:

fuck humans,fuck life,fuck myself .

(:

2009-01-13T23:39:00.000-08:00

fuck !
damn suay , banded but monster still teaching me !!
argh,im gg crazy anytime .
so stressed up !
fucked up O levels .
i wanna get along with all the teachers , but sometimes ppl just wont change the bad impression they have on you .
when you did sth bad,ppl will rmb it for life,
but when you do sth good,ppl wont appreciate it .
i guess that is the world for you .

(:

2009-01-13T00:25:00.000-08:00

Just came back from cafe after a nice Rosti meal .
School sucks today, kb by monster .
lol , i seriously hope to have all the last year's teachers back ):
haha anyway the photo below is took by serene
when we walked out of the cafe, i think the uncle is drunk or sth. just slept likedat on the bench
omg. so unglam .
im so bad to post it =X
okay now im doing my homework .
haha , haven complete alot alot .
next mon half day cos of the ''good'' O level results .
but better than nothing .
CNY come quickly !!!! :D

(:

2009-01-10T21:05:00.000-08:00

Just woke up from a long but fun night ytd ! (:
at first met up with sis then go over to Jonathon's house to drink.
after that im feeling bored as they all keep on talk crap when they are drunk LOL.
so went to Safra & waited for Banana & company (:
the first stop was Geylang, fei fei mian .
after that was Mount Faber (:
was a damn dizzy ride !!! ppl was looking as those crazy guys keep on rounding the hill .
then went to someplace where couples like to put newspapers to cover the car windows while they are ''doing that''
LOL !and those lame guys go disturb haha then i guess the couple were shocked .
after that Lowers seletar and finally 418.
I tried to drive (:
about 4 rounds , damn thrilling can.
but too bad its not on the road , sian .
at one point go over the kerb & last round when i brake accidentally press on the horn.
damn funny lor,the coffeeshop uncles keep on looking .
last stop was sembawang .
cos they wanna find oil, LOL.
''zoot you'' ,so lame .
haha then finally home sweet home ((:
Greatest night ever ! I want to take my dad's car out to drive some day ! HEHE :D

(:

2009-01-06T01:48:00.000-08:00

hello !
just came back .
school sucks today !
almost fell asleep in class .
first period monster come in LOL.
kay la she is abit better than before alr ..
after school bell ring so happy ! :D
went home eat & went to Khatib CC to meet vonn&serene .
i intro them the cafe & they are addicted to it alr :D
after that went outside & talk for like damn long .
haha alot of stupid things to talk about ..
then finally went home
and i just bathed, such a relaxation ! (:
& now i feel like sleeping ):
luckily tmr school starts late .
thurs gg NYP to visit .
go there liike a few times alr so boring
we still have to come back ourselves cos the sch is jus too budget !can collapse anytime lor . haha .
next mon gotta stay back again cos need to see ppl take O level results .
and CNY is coming (:
feb is Valentine's day .
awwww .i wonder who will be my date that day uh ? LOL !
okay thats all folks !

(:

2009-01-04T07:46:00.000-08:00

wow , today finally start work again .
very tired after standing so long .
after that, junjie text me ask me out for dinner ,
so he waited for me after work .
went to KFC , then headed back to my house there .
cos gotta pass him cookies .
one more thing, banana you become more zi lian alr lor !
lol , keep on taking photos when im not in my best .
slacked awhile then he went home with his frens on the lorry
LOL.
yeah so im back home now.
gotta sleep soon.
school tmr ! :D
GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE .

(:

2009-01-03T23:05:00.000-08:00

countdown at Marina bay !
haha,damn squeezy after tht.
stupid bangalas. fuck .
after that went carpenter street drink .
and there was no cab when we want to go home .
so we sat on the trishaw to liang court.
finally after 2 hrs ,we got a cab (:
home sweet home,
next day was Ziteng 21st birthday.
so went to drink once again
he was like so funny when he's drunk .
after that got to know more frens .
reached house downstair ,sth stupid happened .
slept at 7 in the morning ,
but got woke up by ppl .
cos another thing happened .
damn tiring lor ..
haha thats all for today post !
gg work alr no time ,gotta rush

me & birthday boy. i look fat.omg

kah hwa & ruiliang . lol .

yummy !!!

he loves the bag . haha .

(:

2009-01-03T22:15:00.001-08:00

Hello .
i got alot of things to blog about ,
when i get the photos then i will update again (:
thanks for viewing !

(:

2008-12-30T20:41:00.000-08:00

Last day of 2008 .
last day that i will drown in my sorrows .
lol . met up with him yesterday .
chat for quite awhile ..
talking about some of the past made us laugh .
well, i guess its always better to have a friend than enemy .
hating someone is torturing .
lets just forgive & forget .
i will live happier this way too .
whats meant to be yours will be yours one day no matter what happens , so let fate decide everything .
today going marina COUNTDOWN !!
for a new year,a new start ,a new beginning .
maybe after gg sing K ?
not sure too ..

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !
BEST WISHES (:

(:

2008-12-29T20:28:00.000-08:00

tmr is the last day of 2008 ,the last day i will drop tears for you.
for this 1 year, things happened,people walked out of my life.
I gotta grow up to be even stronger than before.
what havent i encounter before ?
and was worse than all these ..
if i could walk out of the past,why not now .
life goes on , and many people are worse off than me .
but im still human , my emotions are still there .
its up to me to get rid of it .
dono why seems like im overwhelmed with emotions when i typed this post about my ''sad'' life .
tears dropped like before,but its never the same again .

(:

2008-12-29T00:05:00.001-08:00

sorry no pictures to update yet .
as my hair is freaking short ):
that day went to Seoul garden with class-mates !
last gathering before school reopens .
yesterday went to meet up with lydia .
guess what !
i saw LOW KAI MING.
the first guy whom im ''crazy'' about
LOL. its so weird though .
we just walked pass each other .
and he came to slack with us later on .
but he have really changed.
to become a more mature person.
As to girls , he is still a BASTARD i guess from the way he talk .
i was thinking , fate is really a funny thing.
he's my first & ran with another girl too .
once this last & worst one was gone .
we bumped into each other once more .
is god trying to play a trick ?
anyway its all in the past .
and i guess me & him can be considered normal frens since he has become normal not like the crazy guy he used to be .
well , humans are born for a reason .
that is , i believe , to search in every corner of the world for the one that can really give them unconditional love .
but love can be a very cruel thing too .
when the one you trusted most turns out to be the ugliest of all .
well,i guess everyone's life is different .
some may have better lives,but some is slogging away to keep their lives.
life is a mystery .
open it yourself .

I just got fucked by my mind playing tricks

(:

2008-12-27T02:43:00.000-08:00

next year taking O levels gonna be damn busy studying .
no time to think about bullshit stuff ,
Anyway im deleting my friendster acc people !
GUESS WHAT? I CUT MY HAIR SHORT !!!!!
BE A NUN . LOL !!!

TO YOU !!! :
people out there , there's a saying.
what goes around comes around .
ppl will get their desserts one day .
whats the point of wanting to talk to me NOW ?
when i wanted to TALK TO YOU, DID YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE ?
you ever thought of how i FELT WHEN YOU SCOLDED ME , WHEN I FEEL LIKE IM BEING STEPPED ON LIKE SHIT ?!
HELL NO !
I waited for you for 2 FUCKING weeks ,
no answer . all i get was words that STABBED RIGHT THROUGH MY FUCKING HEART .
regretted ? guilty ?
don talk BULLSHIT with me yeah .
I FEEL EVEN DUMBER
THE MOST STUPID FOOL IN THE WHOLE WORLD .
27 WAS TODAY . REMEMBER WHAT YOU TOLD ME ?
HAHA I GUESS NOT RIGHT ?!
SO WHAT IF THOSE DAYS WERE WONDERFUL ?
DID YOU TREASURE IT ?
HOW FAST A PERSON'S HEART CAN CHANGE .
JUST ONE DAY SIA ! BROKE UP ON 10TH ONLY LEH.
I AM REALLY SHOCKED BY IT .
TEACH ME LEH ?
YOU THINK YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE FEELING MISERABLE ?
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO CHOSE THIS PATH.
you said: I RATHER BE ALONE THAN ATTACHED TO ANYONE LEH.
HAHA YOU ARE MAKING MY TOES LAUGH .
HYPOCRITE CONTRADICTOR .
SAY ONE THING DO ANOTHER ,
TRYING TO SAY YOU ARE ALONE NOW UH ?
PLS LA,THATS NOT THE CASE .
TRYING TO HAVE THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS UH?
OH PLEASE , DREAM ON !!!!
GUILTY GUILTY GUILTY RMB THIS WORD FOREVER !
AND PLS DON MAKE ME PUKE WITH YOUR PHOTOS AND POSTS MAN .
''DA BIAN'' SIOL ? HAHA ITS THE NAME YOU USED TO CALL ME LEH REMEMBER ''DEAR BANANA'' ?
I didnt know shit can be replaced .
YOU'all WONT COME TO A GOOD END (:
NEXT TIME I SEE YOU , 2 MIDDLE FINGERS & ''PUI'' !!
Oh yes you have NO RIGHTS to be unhappy about what i post.
like you said, YOU'RE THE ONE IN THE WRONG JERK !
Goodbye & enjoy your fat meat. PLS DON CHOKE TO DEATH

THIS PART OF THE SONG IS FOR YOU :
You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You’re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out
An’ don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now
Go on and take a bow
Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on
Ohh, and the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let’s hear your speech out

):

2008-12-07T21:51:00.000-08:00

雨淋湿了天空毁得很讲究
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手我晒干了沉默
悔得很冲动就算这次做错也只是怕错过在一起叫
梦分开了叫痛是不是说没有做完的梦最痛迷路的后
果我能承受这最后的出口
在爱过了才有能不能给我一首歌的时间
静静的把那拥抱变成永远在我的怀里
你不用害怕失眠如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点
雨淋湿了天空毁得很讲究你说你不懂我为何在这时牵手我晒干了沉默
悔得很冲动就算这次做错也只是怕错过在一起叫
梦分开了叫痛是不是说没有做完的梦最痛迷路的后果
我能承受这最后的出口在爱过了才有
能不能给我一首歌的时间静静的
把那拥抱变成永远在我的怀里
你不用害怕失眠如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时
把故事听到最后才说再见你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点你说我不该
不该不该在这个时候说了我爱你要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气请告诉我
暂停算不算放弃我只有那一天的回忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间静静的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见你送我的眼泪
让他留在雨天越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点你说我不该
不该不该在这个时候说了
爱你要怎么证明我没力气告诉我暂停算不算放弃我说我不该
不该在这时候才说爱你要怎么证明我没有力气我只有那一天的回忆

(:

2008-12-07T21:24:00.000-08:00

I received a letter from the Army asking me to sign on .
its quite cool actually but im sure to die there ..
im a girl how come send me this letter ?
keep gg out these few days to kill my time .
went to Escape with serene that day
& it rained for awhile ):
went to play the viking ship for 2 times.
& sat at the last few .
My heart almost really dropped out .
but i don kno why it didnt .
maybe i still have things for me to solve it .
or its just not my time to die yet .
after that Cyn & Lydia came to meet us .
then lydia's frens,shan ji walked pass ..
so he came to chat with us too .
next day, meet them up to slack again .
Shanji was there to entertain us .
he's a chatterbox number 1 ,
This thursday gonna go Kbox cos its SIS BIRTHDAY !! :D
will sing out hearts out .
today didnt went to work .
im too tired . .
later gonna meet up with Cyn & Lydia again i guess ..

):

2008-11-29T19:04:00.000-08:00

Feeling so miserable .

JUNJIE : I really hope you understand whats the prob .
These few days have been really hard to pass .
We have been together for so long alr .
but i don understand why cant you understand what i want .
I want the past us , when we were so happy & understanding towards each other ,when we were so committed & faithful ,& we always put in effort to solve the prob when sth goes wrong .
But now why ? why is it this way ..why cant you listen to me ,
i know you have your personal life but this kind of thing keep on ringing bells in my mind ..
you know how i feel , cos in the past if my guy friends asked me out . you dislike it & i compromise with you ..
Im a girl ,& im more sensitive to thse kind of issues .
and all the things that happened these few days didnt stop . But cant you sacrifice for me & make it stop ?
I don know why i am torturing myself ,
it seems like the only way to sleep is to drink .
Im really tired of my life ..
In the past , ppl talked behind my back,scold me , run away from home, get into police station for dono how many times ,
mix with bad friends & got into trouble ,went to family counselling,psychiatrist,school counselling .
there was a time i even had to wait at the security guard house & wait for my dad to pick me up . It was like jail.
i couldnt go anywhere except home & school .
Principal asked my mum send me to hostel or girls home ..
My life was really like hell that time.
i regretted walking that path .
and after we got together ,
you're the first guy the i can feel the sincerity there .
you're the first guy that made me touched .
you're the first that made me trust you .
you're the first that made me feel secure and heartwarming .
you're the first to make me happy with all your surprises .
you're the first that can make me change for the better .
& you're the first & last i wanna have.

But why has it become this way now ?
we said we must work together ..
so can you prove it to me now ?
dono why tears seem to flow when i typed this post .

(:

2008-11-27T15:51:00.000-08:00

27/11/08
Happy 7th month dear !
I love you , & always will (:

(:

2008-11-26T21:21:00.000-08:00

HELLO .
I got the Edusave bursary HAHA cant believe it sucha lousy student got $250 .
I am BORED .
VERY VERY BORED ..
REAL BORED .
EXTREMELY BORED .
I MISS MY FRIENDS ,
MY HAPPY TIMES ,
MY EVERYTHING .
okay i know this is lame .
goodbye my puny lil sad life

SORRY FOR POSTING SUCHA LAME POST !

(:

2008-11-24T03:55:00.000-08:00

hello (:
went to SPCA on sat
the dogs there are so pitiful ):
cant adopt one cos i need to be 21 to do that ..
i love the husky i saw , thunder (:
ytd got my pay .
i hit the target and sold $1500 of shoes
so my commission is quite alot .
and the boss praised me :D
then my mum gave me a Coach wallet .
so many things to be happy about (:
now saving money for shopping during my holiday trip ..
and next year driving licence :DD
I looked at all my sec1,2,3 friends' blogs .
ans suddenly felt so dumb & stupid .
why did i walked the wrong path ?
and the excitement in the past is all an illusion ..
so what if i regretted it ?
time wont turn back for an ordinary person like me ..
but how i wish it does
& i will be in a tertiary institution now
& keep in contact with all those friends instead of the ''bad'' ones ..
but to think of it ,i gained an experience that they never had ..
i once had the bad,so now i will have the best even in future ..

saw some bitch that made me disgusted .

(:

2008-11-19T22:47:00.000-08:00

3 more weeks to the N level results !!!
pray hard that i did well .
GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE !! :D

(:

2008-11-17T20:23:00.000-08:00

Guess what ?
i bought myself shoes again from the shoe shop im working at.
haven't get pay alr spent some of it . haha .
but the designs are unique though cos this brand is from Europe .
gonna be busy this whole week .
working alot of days & feeeling tired alr .
ytd sis called me ,i haven't met her in awhile .
was thinking of meeting her next week after i get my pay to go shop.
but next week im working 6 days !
cos of those irresponsible workers who nvr come the last min
& i have to help to cover .
and also saw alot of ppl whom i know =.=
but i guess i shall request one more day off .
cos next thurs is me & banana's 7th mth
WOW huh ?i didnt expect him to break my record of having the longest r/s for 7 mth.
haha . so thurs no work .
If sat also no work can meet sis (:
i need to buy a bag and maybe save up to buy a dog ?
cos i have all i need ..
okay i gotta stop here .
later gg work again (:
BYEBYE :D

(:

2008-11-06T02:42:00.000-08:00

today's post is lame .
hello .
no work today .
so i went for facial .
freaking painful to feel the needles poking your face .
the beautician was my mum's fren
she was nice , after treatment all that .
she gave me samples of mask all that ..
im looking forward to pay day !!!
there are alot of things i wanna buy.
so have to decide quickly as well as save abit .
haha, okay im addicted to bubble tea & the pearls ! lol
i wanna cut my hair real soon,
wanna change my hairstyle cos im sick of this .
browsing through the internet for some hairstyles
but cant find any =.=
okay im gg to buy bubble tea bye !!! haha

(:

2008-11-03T20:56:00.000-08:00

No work today ! :D
but im soooo bored at home .
just now they called and said tmr i will be working half day only .
how can they change it so suddenly ):
i wanna earn more $$$$ .
made a friend there cos she is the same age as me .
luckily she found this job or i will be stuck with ppl much older than me .
& those fucking foreign workers keep on doing construction.
using a fucked up hammer to knock .
SO NOISY ! arghhhhhh . nvr spare a thought for ppl sleeping .
nth to blog about alr =.=

(:

2008-11-02T19:53:00.000-08:00

Hello !
this is the first time i like my job .
the boss is nice,the location is good & the ppl there are great (:
this sat im gg with lydia to an old folk's home to do volunteery work.
to kill time as well as to find the joy of helping others .
cos i want ppl to help me too when im old. LOL.
and also to add credit to my life haha
maybe in my next life i will have a better life .
i also sent the volunteer application form for SPCA.
really love dogs but don get to have them ):

& as for training ,im starting to like training .
but dono whether i will still continue after the lessons finish .
Muay thai really made an impact in my life ,
it was the one which made to change for the better .
and it was the first art & hobby that made me stay in it for 1year plus .
amazing huh ? cos usually im only interested in a thing for awhile .

As for friends,well i really felt that i neglected sis since i started studying .
she was really a great friend for 5 years ,
always being there for me ,
but didnt contact each other as much now.
although we have our things to be busy with,
but i hope our friendship is still the same.
although we may not contact as often now,
but the happy memories can never be erased or replaced (:
As for my other good friends , i wont forget you all !

As for r/s , it has been half a year .
time really flies & it has been a long time since i was with a guy for so long .
banana's a great bf :D
although we really have alot of quarrels since dono when ..
but i guess every prob can be solved as long as we work together .
who know what will happen it the future ?
but i just wanna say i really treasure the present (:
the memories he gave me will stay for as long as i live,
although we got our own things to stress about .
but i hope to share the burden with you and not adding .
faith,trust,commitment & love
these are the impt things & im sure i have all these (:
what about you ?

(:

2008-10-27T23:48:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY : 27 OCT 2008
me and banana's half a year together ! (:
hope we'll stay this way .

& i finally found a job !!!!
after so long of walking =.=
went to northpoint
by chance,i went to the new building and ask for a job .
they hired me ! its a shoe shop ,newly opened .
the ppl there are friendly .
and its so near to my home (:

today is a happy day :D

2008-10-21T22:02:00.000-07:00

Hello !

18 oct

went to pulau ubin with him (:

on the bumboat which is damn noisy and cost only $2.50 each.

reached there after 10mins .the place is filled with mosquitoes .

cycled on the worst bicycle after that it rained ):

and we waited for it to stop in a little shelter .

took the bumboat back to changi then went to changi beach for awhile .

after that headed back home :D

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saw an email serene sent me ,

it says Oreo biscuits are filled with MAGGOTS

wtf !look at the pictures below .

beware & don puke xD

:D

2008-10-13T22:54:00.001-07:00

Hello ! gonna post about yesterday ,13 oct 2008.
was damn fun ,went to east coast for our class bbq plus my birthday.
went cycling on the 2 seater bicycle.
cycled to bedok jetty !LOL .
serene & yvonne's bike is so noisy ! LOL !!!!
and its yvonne's first time cycling .haha .
reached there after like 30mins .
was so tired then headed back to the bbq pit .
Mr chew came ,haha and he waited for me to cut my cake before leaving .
and the BIBI took a charcoal and made my whole body dirty.
luckily not my face if not she die !!!!
then she took a piece of my choc peppermint cake and smash it on my face !
ARGH ! but luckily serene help me took revenge haha !
after that really played & everyone was tired .
so me,sis & banana went to somewhere to sit .
then yvonne & serene came to join us after awhile .
and GUESS WHAT !
me & yvonne saw sth like a SHOOTING STAR !!
its a pity its gone so fast but i still made a wish , haha .
after that i went home & banana acc me .
i opened my presents
banana gave me (Anna Sui ,purple perfume) which i wanted long time ago but couldn't find as it was limited edition !!! :DDDD
Sis gave me a black hoodie with nice designs ! i love it ! (:
yvonne & serene gave me before-hand (a monkey with boxing gloves & a black shirt ) haha the monkey looks cute (: okay my hand is getting tired from the typing . LOL so i shall let you all enjoy the photos below !!! :D

(:

2008-10-12T02:11:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is my birthday ! finally ..Im seventeen :D
but i guess 18 is still better ..
Class BBQ tmr :D
i wonder what time to go ?
omgosh ..
today went to see my cake (:
choc peppermint, my fav flavour !
hahaha i wanna cycle tmr leh !
but dono wad time gg there ..
haha anyway today wanted to tidy up my room,
but guess wad i fell alsleep instead .
omgosh wasted half of the day alr ..
haha gotta go. update after tmr !
BYE ((:

(:

2008-10-10T23:13:00.000-07:00

A very random post .
Later im finally gonna see colours on my hair !! :D
I wonder what it will turn out to be .
so excited , 1 2 3 more days to my 17 th bird-day ,13 oct :D
haha. play hard guys (:

I NEED A JOD RIGHT AWAY !!!!!!!!
saw some on the newspapers , but don have the courage to call =X

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2008-10-09T19:39:00.000-07:00

Hello people ! finally exams are over !
last paper D&T yesterday sucks man .
anyway went to Bugis with Yvonne .
and we took alot of photos lol even in the neoprint shop .
bought alot of things & find them worthwhile :D
below are some photos to share !
i look like fuck LOL
2 more days to 13 oct ,my birthday !!
haha, looking forward to the class bbq .
gonna look for job , anyone got jobs ???
so boreddddddddddddddddddd .
& i was looking through and deleting texts .
thought of the old days & old friends .
kinda miss them but it has been a long tim since we keep in touch .
well, maybe one day i bump into them & they have alr became good !
haha, well , life goes on .
& i meet diff kind of ppl as i grow .
but i hope the ppl i meet in future will not be a disappointment like the past (:
but i guess there are diff types of ppl in this world .
and i still have to be wary , but i guess there will be nice ppl ard (:

She took my photo secretly ! LOL

US !

(:

2008-10-07T22:31:00.001-07:00

YAY ! 1 more paper to go !
haha , tmr is D & T
dono how to start studying.
class chalet cancelled !
because of the school who wants to protect their own reputation .
everyone's unhappy , but there's nth we can do .
but at least there's a bbq going on :D
& its on my birthday , omg dono what mischief they are up to .
lols ,it may be the last time we gonna see some classmates .
so must play hard during the bbq people ! :D
after D&T paper tmr gonna go out with Yvonne & Serene .
haha, think will walk till our legs are numb
and it has been a longggg time since i went shopping .
im also gonna look for a job while walking .
hmmm,i wonder how will i spend this 3 mths .
hmm well , now what i wish for is to go up to sec 5 !
i don really care about the points haha as long as i can go up .
& hope my friends will go up together with me !!
ALL THE BEST !! (:

SHORT POST

2008-09-28T21:44:00.000-07:00

A short post for today .
sorry bout saying the previous one was my last :D
okay this is really gonna be the last post before my exams end .
cos im really getting bored !
Physics & Chemistry paper today .
now rotting till 1plus & head back to school for Math paper 1 .
9 october last paper -> D&T ):
9 more days to end of exams !!!
3 more days & he'll be back !
then i can give the choc chip cookies i baked :D
Okay BYE for now :P

(:

2008-09-20T06:51:00.001-07:00

HELLO !
okay im supposed to blog after exams
but i will put this as my last post instead,
cos i miss him alot !
Lantern festival he came & find me
and light up the candles !!
there are some photos below .
i made a heart shape & he light up all the fire crackers on a tree.
looks romantic seriously
haha !
then ytd he came & find me one last time before gg to China ):
SOBS .
and he gave me a bouquet of roses !
so surprised yet touched .
actually he wanted to buy my favourite roses that are blue
but couldn't find them ,
so he bought red instead,
and told me 6 roses represnts ''im yours''
he gave me this cos he cant be with me on our coming 5th mth
cos he's at china ):
argh ! but its okay .
and i trust that although he's not with me but his heart is :D
LOL ! okay below are the photos ,
and good luck to my frens for the coming N's .
haha anyway who cares about ***what happen uh ? LOL
thats all folks !! :D
blogging after exams !
BBYEEEEEEEEE .

(:

2008-09-11T22:39:00.000-07:00

HELLO !
today have abit of misunderstandings b/w me & serene
but it was all settled.
after all , we are frens .
and i wont be blogging for now cos of exams .
but will be back after that.
oh yes, say all you want hor !!! (:
cos there wont be any reply
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH !
cos i rather waste my precious time on exams :DDD
WOOHOO
:DDDDDDDDDDDD
LOLL .
BYE ALL (:

(:

2008-09-06T07:04:00.000-07:00

HI ALL (:
back to blogging,
haven't been studying since the Eng paper .
& firstly ,i wanna thank my frens who cheer me up when i was down (:
thanks lydia for accompanying me (:
okay , so back to school next week.
gonna be boring cos its the same old thing ,revision again .
but no choice ,
not feeling well today ,got a bad cough .
next fri im planning to go Escape with him (:
it has been a long time since we went out .
well , i guess everything that happened
made my realise there will be ups & downs in life.
it depends on whether you handle your emotions well ,
sometimes i jus wish i could lose my memory & only rmb the happy times .
haha ,
okay thats about all ..
gonna sleep soon
GOOD NIGHT TO ALL :D

2 POSTS FOR TODAY !

2008-09-04T21:05:00.000-07:00

MY BLOG'S SONG

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters,brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
'cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why i didn't show up sometimes
on sunday mornings and i miss you
But im glad we talked through
All them grown full things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
face to face

[ Chorus ]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As..time..goes..by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
And you never got the chance to
see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me
that I held so tight I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

hello

2008-09-04T20:40:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went Escape with sis to forget our troubles.
okay & we played almost everything there .
but to no avail we still feel shagg after that .
the best was the Inverter & the Viking ship .
so thrilling that my heart dropped .
and at that moment nth was gg through my head except the feeling of thrill .
how i wish time would stop there .
then went to the haunted house .
and that ass hole who was wearing the ''ghost mask'' tried to scare us .
guess what ? i scolded him .so irritating .
then there is one when we felt that we were flying .
so when its time to go on,emotions came back again.
I just finished my 3 papers .
and luckily my Eng exams was the same topic as Prelims !
maybe this is life .
you gain one thing but lose another .
and what's done cannot be undone .

i have said whatever i wanted to say .
cos its so hard to keep it inside me
so bottled up as if there's a knot there that cant be untied .
its so sad to think that you have nobody to confide in .
i was jus thinking , just as i thought my life is getting better ,
its gone back to where i started now .
then things that happened are all things of the past.
if i keep on looking back,
i would be troubled & wose still,tired of living .
maybe my past life i was a very bad person
so retribution has come .
but the things that happened made me grow up .
and mrs teng had a chat with me ytd ,
she said if the other party was mature enough,he will accept it
but it takes time .
i know ,thats why im giving him time .
maybe cos my circle of frens in the past come across life experiences
and they feel thats is a norm thing .
but this time its diff ,
thats why i treasure it .
i wanna do sth to occupy myself now .
if not wild thoughts will be running through .
and whats the point ?
can my life be better if i moan about my life ?
No ....
I wanna be brave,but it may not be what it seem.
and she said too that focus on those who cares for me .
well , i don know ..
and i really feel very tired , i just wanna sleep and never wake up .
maybe to the end of whatever troubles i have ?

(:

2008-08-28T06:03:00.000-07:00

HELLO !
so long since i blogged .
next week is the N levels alr
OMFGGG ,
today the school organised an ITE talk for us .
although its not applicable to me .
but i will still be worried of cos .
who wont ?
the stress is getting more & more each day .
and i really hope the whole class would go up to sec 5 next year .
or i'll be lonely ):
lols .
wish me all the best :D
haha .
and our 4th mth jus passed .
(:
hope we'll last for eternity (:

(:

2008-08-16T23:14:00.000-07:00

Hello there !
so long since i blogged .
been busy mugging for exams .
its the same routine everyday,
study study & study .
siannnnnnn ...
im trying to squeeze info in my brain .
but my brain is feeling too lazy .
& i suddenly feel like getting a dog ,
you know ,for companionship etc ...
haha .
& i like the song on nurul's blog
LOL.im gonna find it !
okay im talking crap.
anyway nth much to blog about alr
BYE ALL (:

(:

2008-08-07T18:37:00.000-07:00

wow tmr is National Day alr.
haha today sch is having celebrations so didnt went ..
yesterday met lydia for awhile to catch up on some stuff .
cos anyway she is the closest fren i have for so many years
LOL .
3 more days to Prelims ..
(:
and i did follow my schedule to study 1 or 2 subjects everyday .
okay i have nothing else to blog so bored ..
happy birthday singapore _!_ haha

(:

2008-08-04T03:35:00.001-07:00

I did one quiz.
VERY TRUE !
LOL , go try it people !
& you can know all about your personality .
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

(:

2008-08-03T02:01:00.001-07:00

Hello (:
tmr is another day at school.
& gonna see whether we gonna get our marks alr ..
today went for chinese tuition & the china teacher taught me damn well lor
haha, with her help sure will do much better for chinese.
cos the ong ah jit is not willing to help ? ..
one more week to Prelims .
omggg .
to my frens :
although it may be stressful,but never tell ourselves we cannot do it .
giving up halfway equals to failure (:
now is the time to put aside other things ,
& concentrate fully .
if sth is bugging you , you will not do as well ..
there will be obstacles in life for everyone.
& not all can be solved
but at least we tried & did our best (:

Some inspirational quotes from an email :
1) Dont compare yourself with anyone in this world .
If you comapre,you are insulting yourself .
2)Easy is to judge the mistakes of others
Difficult is to recognise our own mistakes
It is easier to protect your own feet with slippers
than to cover the Earth with carpet .
3)No one can go back & change a bad beginning
But anyone can start now & create a successful ending .

(:

2008-08-01T23:22:00.000-07:00

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this is the last post im writing bout all these small things .
there's no point to this argument
Im just wasting my precious time
BYEBYE ! (:

(:

2008-08-01T21:35:00.000-07:00

OMFG .i heard that the bitch alr mark our project ,
seriously,the school is so unorganised lor .
If SHE had planned for us what to do everyday .
then people wont have to go at different pace .
First,HOD said extend deadline to wed
cos alot of ppl haven finish either their folio or presentation board .
and now i heard that the bitch grade us when we haven even finish ?
what the hell is going on man.
Yes,the sch deadline is on thurs ,but since it's alr extended
why must she still mark ?
Or is it cos she's unhappy about what we ''complained'' bout her ?
If this is really the case,she is very childish as a teacher & adult .
& to add on, she's married .
yet she don even have a single sense of maturity to handle problems well .
instead she is so called taking ''revenge''.
well i don not know the real reason.
But she have to responsibilty to explain why she mark it on thurs .
when actually the extended deadline is wed ?
and if they extend ,they shld say till its clear cut.
firstly,HOD said extend to wed the LAST DEADLINE .
so everbody naturally thought it would be marked on wed instead right ?
and if they wanna extend & let us continue with our work,
they shouldn't have any reason to argue that
it shld be marked on the sch deadline on thurs.
If that's the case , wanting to mark on thurs,
why give us extended deadline in the first place ?
and moe's gonna come moderate the marks.
What benefits does the bitch have in doing this ?
She can only feel happy that she got back at us for ''awhile'' right ?
the teachers are making us confused and worried.
we spent 8 fucking months to do this project .
and if SHE mark us down when
its not even the date of the extended deadline which is wed ,
we would seriously bear a grudge against her .

(:

2008-07-31T18:30:00.000-07:00

HI !
woke up but didnt go to school .
completed my D&T project
FINALLY :D
But the bitch is gonna grade it .
luckily MOE ppl gonna come & moderate the marks .
yesterday everyhting went wrong .
cos of D&T lesson .
late for CH,late for Chem,
then in the end thrash things out with the d&t teacher ,
i guess we gotta work well together.
cos she's gonna be teaching me next year !
fuckkk ..!!!
but anyway bearing grudges is a torture to yourself .
so why not jus bear for one more year & get out of the school .
Today ,
Im not gg punch
gotta touch up on my project .
& studyyyyyyyyyyy ):
Studying everyday will make a person go crazy .
so gotta have some outdoor activities .
i wanna go Sentosa !
I miss playing volleyball after so many years not touching it.
& there's a tv show which keep tempting me to play it !
okay ..gotta go !!
im gonna watch some old chinese drama from channel 8
cos its too early .
& hear the obiang songs & see the ppl in the show
LOL
oh yes , i viewed a blog
lols ,bitches ''kah jiao wei'' bout you uh
haha i pity you ,
don even know anything bout wad ppl think bout you .
lol . Im not as CHILDISH as you (:
so i will keep my ''beautiful'' comments to myself (:

(:

2008-07-26T21:50:00.000-07:00

I woke up at 8 am
fucking early lor O.O
& my exams are coming in 2 weeks time !
Im gonna have chinese tuition next week
cos my chinese teacher is so ''kind hearted''
that she don wanna teach me the words i don know .
But i prefer a china teacher ,
cos they are the best in Chinese i guess ?
& since im a Chinese ,
i should know my language (:
okay and i guess i have studied half way alr ?
after the exams,my uncle wants me to work in his company
to package the stocks .
In a way,its good cos he's my relative
& working hours are flexible
But on the other hand,I will be WATCHED !
cos ppl whom you know usually expects you to get everything right .
& i hate his nagging la .
im old enough to make my own decisions for god's sake .
well ,tmr is another boring day in sch,
gotta memorise another esaay ..
))):

):

2008-07-26T04:42:00.000-07:00

went out with yvonne & serene today (:
bought the haversack & hoodie :DD
walked till or legs were freaking numb
& guess wad ?
we went to Yoshinoya to rest but nvr bought anything.
LOL !!
I think ppl think we'r crazy .
then yvonne took ALOT of photos !!
haha (: enjoyed gg out with 'em :D
AFTER THAT EVERYTHING WENT WRONG !
&& Im fucking pissed off now la
shouldnt have went to my uncle's house
nobody talked to me ..
& my uncle just gave me wine to drink .
then THEY said ''don go outside drink so much .better be more ''zi dong'' ''
FUCK LA !
what the hell is wrong ?
i didnt wanna go there at first,
but when i went there all i get is ppl saying bad things about me.
So wad if i used to drink last time ?
So wad if YOU ALL know i smoked ?
is it a fucking big deal ?!!!
HEY IM YOUR NIECE OKAY
MUST YOU LIKE TO ME LIKE IM A CRIMINAL !?
then my cousins brought their BOYFRIENDS THERE .
& my mum said ''see la they all bring their bf leh,ask yours to come la ''
fuck la ,so my mum asked him
& he still didnt want.
HEY it is my mum who asked you okay .
i know you don like these kind of gatherings .
so its my fault to irritate you again by asking once more lor.
Guess why i reach home so early ?
cos i cant fucking stay there anymore.
NO ONE talks to me.
NO ONE bothers
& all they say is how i was LAST TIME .
FUCK IT .

2008-07-24T00:26:00.000-07:00

Im having mood swings lately ,
maybe because of the upcoming exams.
Its hard to control one's emotions .
But i know i cant let my emotions control me.
I get irritated at the slightest things .
jus now he called me ,
his fren said sth.
& i really felt irritated .
Its like suddenly I want everyone
to shut the fuck up & let me have peace .
but im being self-centered like that ..
Its hard not to feel anything .
or maybe my emotions are changing now & then .
It may be my fault that im born this way ,
but im really so stressed up *&^%$@!
i know if i did study,i wont have to worry .
But my case is diff from others,
i alr wasted 2 fucking years .
and i cannot afford to lose more time anymore !
& i seriously regretted wasting time
the other thing is,
teachers are putting more & more pressure on us .
& some teachers are putting high hopes on me .
My brain is like gonna explode !
I need my own space now .
seriously ,i need to be alone .
so ppl who talked to me today may be offended by me .
but pls don come and irritate me
or i dono what will happen ..
SIGHHHHHH ):

(:

2008-07-20T04:08:00.000-07:00

YOYO !
woke up at ard 8plus in the morning .
damn early right ?!
then went to study Chemistry ,
time really flies ..
Im left with two more weeks to Prelims .
Im so booooreeddd at home ):
look through some friendster bulletins ,
& saw this :
What does your name says about you ?
TRY IT ! :D
A : You are hot.
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D : You like to eat.
E : You like to play with cats.
F : You are dead sexy.
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You have a very good personality and good looks.
I : Easy to be with.
J : People Adore you.
K : You're wild and crazy.
L : Everyone loves you.
M : Best kisser ever.
N : Best bf/gf anyone could ask for.
O : Easy to fall in love with.
P : You are popular with all types of people.
Q : You are a hypocrite.
R : You're loyal to those you love.
S : Fuckin crazy.
T : Awesome kisser.
U : You really like to chill.
V : Awesome in bed.
W : You are very broad minded.
X : You love sports.
Y : Best bf/gf anyone could ask for.
Z : Always ready.

My name:
C : You are really silly. ( oh yeah ?)
H : You have a very good personality and good looks. (awwww xD)
E : You like to play with cats. (NO ! =.=)
L : Everyone loves you. (I hope so !! )
S : Fuckin crazy. ( Yeah totally !)
I : Easy to be with. (Depends )
A : You are hot. ( WOW O.O )

hello

2008-07-19T07:31:00.000-07:00

Today was damn tiring .
woke up 10 am in the morning
& i slept at 1plus am cos of training .
went to Woodlands library with Yvonne & Serene
to meet Ms suganthi .
then we couldn't find any space there .
so went to the cafe .
Teacher taught us two topics alr .
so good right ,i guess its hard to find this
kind of teacher who sacrifice their weekends to teach us .
then after Ms suganthi left ,
actually we wanted to catch a movie .
but there was limited choices =.=
so walked ard Causeway point ..
and bought doughnuts .
It was nice lor ..
While walking ,we were talking about class & all ,
haha even about kah hwa too
LOL =X
then went back to Khatib to meet him for dinner
& now im back here blogging (:
Today was a fruitful day cos i studied !!
haha

yoyo

2008-07-17T17:46:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone !
I woke up in the morning ,
but didnt go to school.
too tired already,
somemore first lesson is Chinese with the ''AH JIT'' .
LOL .
But i still like Chinese although we got a sucky teacher .
guess what im doing now ?
studying for Chemistry O.O
lols .
this is the first time im studying
at home so early in the morning .
later going Punch (:
3 weeks didnt go already ,
kinda miss training .
but i guess i will be dead meat .
cos my stamina is getting worse O.O
haha , okay gonna go study already
Good luck to my friends except ''someone'' for N's
& lets go sec5 together (:
:DDDDDDDDDDDD

hi

2008-07-17T00:04:00.000-07:00

Just came back from school .
later going for night class again ,
well well .
some people are just so childish
*tsk tsk tsk
sec 4 already still dono how to think for herself .
hahaha
* YOU are blogging about me & the rest i guess ?
use so many vulgarities
when some of them is copied from others
& your English sucks okay ?!
'EXPECT' SPELLED AS 'ESPECT'
HAHA !
& you claimed we were once close ?
OMFG. you're the one who wanna stick to me man !
im not so thick skinned lor =.=
Let me get things right first :
Do you even know the whole class hate you?
LOL !
so dumb to even think you still have friends .
They just don wanna hurt your ''small little heart ''
HAHA .
haha i don wanna be a hypocrite so i will voice out everything here
Its my blog so i have the rights just like what you did .
the first thing is
Do you even know you best sister don really like you ?
''everytime borrow $$$ from ppl didnt return''
thats what i heard .
In class ,ppl are studying so PLS SPARE A THOUGHT FOR OTHERS
DON scream with a such an annoying high pitch voice everytime .
makes everyone irritated .
then LOVE to take advantage of others
especially when it comes to $$$$
& heard that you love to copy people
pls la ,have your OWN STYLE MAN .
*TSK TSK TSK
I PITY YOU LOR .
COS EVERYONE THINKS YOU'RE CHEAPSKATE
HAHA
I don wanna continue anymore
cos there is just too many things.
JUST THINK ,
IF YOU ARE REALLY SUCH A NICE GIRL ,
HOW COME EVERYONE HATES YOU ?
& pls look at your own attitude.
IT SUCKS FOR GOD'S SAKE !
and do you think we really love to look at you ?
LOL
do you think you're MISS UNIVERSE ?
haha WE HAVE NICER THINGS TO LOOK AT LA !
or maybe cos they wanna look at your ''lovely'' lips ma .
PLS DO SOME SELF REFLECTION BEFORE YOU SAY OTHERS .
CHILDISH BITCH :D

hello

2008-07-09T05:15:00.001-07:00

Guess what im doing now ?
my D&T COURSEWORK !
WTF ! still need to type out all that
but no choice,its my marks .
Oh yes , and i wonder whats wrong being good again ?!
I was doin my D&t in school.
then my friend in sec 5 came talked to me .
He said :''How come you doing you work ?
you've become so auntie already leh !
you changed alot from last time till now
last time was ******* (gang poem ) =.=
anyway i know you sure can go sec5
but by then you are alr 18 years old leh !!''
FUCK MAN !
whats wrong with taking O levels at 18 .
whats wrong with doing work ?
whats wrong with BECOMING GOOD AGAIN ?!
WELL, anyway im not gonna fuck care (:
I shouldn't let words from ppl affect me
cos they are just words .
FOR PPL WHO ARE CONCERNED ABOUT PPL'S WORDS :
Let me tell you ,
i've been through much more back stabbing than this
and the things they say were worse .
but who cares ?
JUS BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
& YOU KNOW ITS NOT TRUE.
DON LET PPL'S WORDS AFFECT
YOU AS THEY'RE JUST WORDS.
JUST KNOW THAT THEY'RE JEALOUS OF YOU .
AND LET THEIR WORDS MAKE YOU STRONGER
& NOT WEAKER
IF NOT YOU WILL BE
THE ONE LOSING OUT IN THE END
TRUST YOUSELF AS YOU DECIDE YOUR OWN LIFE !! (:

hello

2008-07-06T22:11:00.000-07:00

Today is Youth Day .
another boring day at home ..
im looking forward to school ?
lol !
& im caught with a flu.
omfg . so irritating ..
& i realised i havent been gg training for 2 weeks alr !
cos of school ..so tired ):
but im gonna go this friday (:
cos training keeps me fit
haha !!
i wanna have a muscular body with six packs
LOL ! i would look damn alien-ish .
& my eng oral was just over .
PHEW!
but i guess i didnt do as well as i expected .
i had a mental block in the middle .
& i was doing the picture part.
wtf man ,sad lorrr .. )):
totally forgot what i wanted to say .
but anyway luckily i tried to pulled myself up
in the conversation part .
well ,whats done cannot be undone.
now,i just have to concentrate on the rest .
cos im sure i wanna take O levels next year !
or it will be so wasted . (2years) =.=

(:

2008-07-06T03:07:00.000-07:00

I have too many things in mind .
so it's hard to post it out .
there is a right time to say things that need to be said .
and now's not .
sometimes ppl wonder ,
what do they live for ?
& whats the purpose of their life ?
I was confused during a period of time .
i don't know what i want
and i have no goals.
sometimes i may be sth like a philosopher ?
as the things i think about is in depth .
i have random mood swings and
that caused my emotions to be unbalanced ,
especially towards personal r/s
like friends , BGR or even family .
and my mood swings caused me to be over-sensitive .
& cos of this ,it may lead to
quarrels or conflicts or disagreements .
I don't understand what kind of a person am i .
sometimes things that happen
are not what i wanted .
I dont expect everyone to accept what kind of a person am i.
i jus need people to understand .
and somtimes my mood swings may lead me
to get irritated by the slightest things .
i cant control it ..

I somehow feel that you're different from before.
or am i thinking too much ?

(:

2008-07-04T20:37:00.000-07:00

I realised ..
I have been staying at home or gg to school these few weeks ?!
omfg .
i miss gg out with lydia & shop
My clothes are rotting in the wardrobe
and i havent bought any new clothes for 2 mths alr ?!
ARGHHHH ...
But too bad ,priority is studies now ))):
& shopping have to wait till i have my holidays .

:D

2008-07-03T04:34:00.000-07:00

Today was a long long day..
stayed back in school till 6plus O.O
but im glad i learnt alot of things today.
First,went to science SSS & my teacher
taught me another 3 chapters .
plus the one ytd is alr 6 chapters !
& this is the first time i totally understand
CHEMISTRY ! LOL
then after that,went to look for mrs hee
& practise oral with her
cos tmr is my 'N' level oral . OMFGGGG
lastly,went for math night class
& did revision on chapter 1 (:
Today MRS POH brought me to look for MDM AINI.
cos of D&T =.=
but in the end mdm aini was full of praises
haha !
she told me don label myself as an N.a student
cos im an O level student
& she have higher expectation from me
and told me the work she saw today
can get at least a grade 3
but she thinks that i can do much better.
well ,what she said certainly made me felt better .
cos i alr wasted 4 yrs in Express =.=
but personally i feel that we shouldn't
discriminate the N.a people.
cos they are nicer ppl than the Express (:
& nobody is dumb .
Oh yes !
ytd i went to meet lydia
& she passed me the VictoriaSecret undies
i asked her to help me buy online & ship here from US.
its below >>

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It was in a nice plastic !