Im having mood swings lately ,
maybe because of the upcoming exams.
Its hard to control one's emotions .
But i know i cant let my emotions control me.
I get irritated at the slightest things .
jus now he called me ,
his fren said sth.
& i really felt irritated .
Its like suddenly I want everyone
to shut the fuck up & let me have peace .
but im being self-centered like that ..
Its hard not to feel anything .
or maybe my emotions are changing now & then .
It may be my fault that im born this way ,
but im really so stressed up *&^%$@!
i know if i did study,i wont have to worry .
But my case is diff from others,
i alr wasted 2 fucking years .
and i cannot afford to lose more time anymore !
& i seriously regretted wasting time
the other thing is,
teachers are putting more & more pressure on us .
& some teachers are putting high hopes on me .
My brain is like gonna explode !
I need my own space now .
seriously ,i need to be alone .
so ppl who talked to me today may be offended by me .
but pls don come and irritate me
or i dono what will happen ..
SIGHHHHHH ):