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And so i skipped school for half a day.
thoughts came running through my mind since yesterday .
sometimes , people get fucked in their miserable lives
while other are enjoying the sweetness of happiness .
people always ask, why is the world so unfair ?
I was thinking about this question too .
but i guess i cannot ''self-pity'' cos its a kind of action when you give up on yourself .
my body is not well , it may be the emotional hurt that is caused to cause this physical hurt .
yesterday,i was enaging in self-pity .
like what i did the other time , i drank the cough syrup again .
so that i can sleeeeep and not to think about any other stuffs .
i look down on myself for being like this ,
but sometimes ppl just cant help it bout the things they do .
If im gonna start anew , everything will HAVE to go smoothly as i planned
but is it possible ?
well , there is no point to say so much right now .


I still hate you for what you did ,
i wont forgive you again.
cause i made a wrong choice to forgive ,
as you proved to me that you are not the guy i used to know .
totally different .