Yo what's up my niggas .

I'm so nervous about tmr !
omfg , what should i wear ?
formal teacher attire =.= no shorts,no slippers,no jeans FML .
so tired these few days ,didn't sleep well ,which idk why .
heard that there may be no school for the whole of next week cos of E learning week,
OMG DEAR GOD,I PRAY THAT IT'S TRUE PLEASE :)))))))
How i dread Wednesdays and especially Thursdays,longest days in school,longest time to get the fuck home .
That day i poured everything out in my heart , about my 'nice' lil family .
Somehow i feel that im getting more and more 'fragile' as the days go by .
more prone to getting teared eyes .
I don't want that,i hate myself for being sucha weakling !
maybe it's some sort of an impact left during my pathetic childhood days .
All that beatings ,cursing,swearing was really enough ,enough .
I wanna be how i was after all those ,immune to stuff .
But it's not easy,cos im a human with emotions everyone has .
And when YOU said : they don't understand,I understand .
I felt ecstatic for a moment, yet fearful that there will be a day you wouldn't wanna understand anymore . But im really gald there's finally YOU in my 'emo' days when i needed someone , cos you weren't in any of those days before when you're busy or when i didn't wanna let you know in order not to add on to your burden .
I ought to feel blessed right ? cos i do HAVE someone there,and not just anyone ,but a special someone .
How i wish time would just stop everytime i'm with you . Do you feel the same ?
Okay guys,sorry to whine so much in my posts .. But i guess LIFE= life isn't fucking easy . haha !