Bad night for sleeping,why do nightmares just love to be with me while im sleeping.
I'm always feeling real unhappy,real upset,or real ''emo'' after i woke up.
Is there any way to stop these ? or anyone to be the someone to take me away from those nightmares..
weekends always pass by so quickly, WHY :(((
i like my class but i don like school cos of the assignments and all..
omfg,and especially the fucking long distance to and fro.
IM feeling super uber stressed and worn out .
Any kind souls to console me ?
Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
A LONG DAY
OMFG,i pulled through today which a an extremely longggg day .
Im so worn out ,and yet ppl still have the energy to push and squeeze in trains .
i really hope SMRT will consider reconstructing trains to become longer or have more seats .
and i really hate rude typical s'poreans who don't apologise after they pushed you , FUCK .
mannn, poly life really isn't for a person like me,i regretted no taking some beauty courses outside or whatever ..
but im glad my classmates are nice .
Another issue that is bothering me is i really care about how others look at me .
As a matter of fact, I hate to pretend to be someone else .
So when ppl ask or see my smoke ,i will just continue ,
or even if they know about my nightlife and the occasional drinks i go for .
BUT,i know alot of ppl will think im 'indecent' or whatsoever ,
i mean,i just wanna be myself in front of ppl ,or even find friends who accept me for who i am .
well ,i really hope ppl will treat me like a real fren,instead of 'pretending' to be my fren .
Gosh,im realllyyy stressed up by one lil assignment ,cos i really dono how to go about doing it ,how to start ,how to research .
Im so worn out ,and yet ppl still have the energy to push and squeeze in trains .
i really hope SMRT will consider reconstructing trains to become longer or have more seats .
and i really hate rude typical s'poreans who don't apologise after they pushed you , FUCK .
mannn, poly life really isn't for a person like me,i regretted no taking some beauty courses outside or whatever ..
but im glad my classmates are nice .
Another issue that is bothering me is i really care about how others look at me .
As a matter of fact, I hate to pretend to be someone else .
So when ppl ask or see my smoke ,i will just continue ,
or even if they know about my nightlife and the occasional drinks i go for .
BUT,i know alot of ppl will think im 'indecent' or whatsoever ,
i mean,i just wanna be myself in front of ppl ,or even find friends who accept me for who i am .
well ,i really hope ppl will treat me like a real fren,instead of 'pretending' to be my fren .
Gosh,im realllyyy stressed up by one lil assignment ,cos i really dono how to go about doing it ,how to start ,how to research .
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
boring day
Start school at 3 end at 5 just for S&W ?!
and tmr all theeee way till 6 :(
i'm thinking how to go about doing my individual assignment on obese children .
Maybe i should start organising my thoughts on a piece of paper first .
The worst part is actually the researching part,
cos there must be at least 5 info,and only 2 can be from the internet .
So i guess i have to head down to the library after dono how many years of not stepping into one .
I want to give it my best shot , but thinking about the word limit and the possibility of gg out of point,
it makes me shiver .
Oh man,it's just a pathetic piece of assignment !
Why am i so bothered about it ,or maybe it's because i don't want to go back to my old ways again as well as wasting precious time .
Although im still not very close to my classmates,but they're friendly,no doubt about that ,
i really hope we can be like other classes which are so bonded and united .
It's 10.30 now ,and im hungry already .
kinda looking forward to hip-hop later HAHA !
guess it should be fun with the 'lecturer' we have .
i guess i'll stop here for now ,plan plan plan .. today is all about planning ,no matter big or small .
and tmr all theeee way till 6 :(
i'm thinking how to go about doing my individual assignment on obese children .
Maybe i should start organising my thoughts on a piece of paper first .
The worst part is actually the researching part,
cos there must be at least 5 info,and only 2 can be from the internet .
So i guess i have to head down to the library after dono how many years of not stepping into one .
I want to give it my best shot , but thinking about the word limit and the possibility of gg out of point,
it makes me shiver .
Oh man,it's just a pathetic piece of assignment !
Why am i so bothered about it ,or maybe it's because i don't want to go back to my old ways again as well as wasting precious time .
Although im still not very close to my classmates,but they're friendly,no doubt about that ,
i really hope we can be like other classes which are so bonded and united .
It's 10.30 now ,and im hungry already .
kinda looking forward to hip-hop later HAHA !
guess it should be fun with the 'lecturer' we have .
i guess i'll stop here for now ,plan plan plan .. today is all about planning ,no matter big or small .
heyaa !
Okay,it has been like 1 , 2 years since i blogged ?
feel kinda weird to blog again though lol .
But , im really bored .
If you are so kind to take your time off & read my blog pls don read my archives cos they're horrible,some made me laugh and some made me wonder why i wrote those ..
okay i've like got sooo many things to say these 2 years but i'll just cut it short.
So i manage to clear my O levels and proceed to poly .
But i don't really enjoy poly life ,i missed the days working in Club NaNa,
it was one of the happiest moments of my life .
Maybe because of the env , and got to know alot of people .
And most importantly ,i got to know someone who's part of my life now :)
well, okay i guess there are some point of time in my life that fucks me but i couldn't get over it at first , because there wasnt any form of commmunication or solving of problems .
But now i know everytime things happen,i shouldn't run away from it & should face it .
okay it's damn easy to say,but effing hard to do .
People judge me by my looks thinking im strong, but no .
I may be damn stupid to admit im weak or fragile inside , but that's me .
and pls don't ever mess with my heart be it friends ,family or boyfriend .
you don't know what will happen .
I can be very positive and crazy at times ,
but when im pessimistic,i will do the craziest things ever ,maybe it isn't a good thing but that's my way of dealing with things i guess .
Anyway there are SOO much more things i wanna type,but im lazy LOL.
so i'll just end this post off with the hope that everything will remain as it is ,as smoothly as now .
Lastly,don fuck around with me,thank you .
feel kinda weird to blog again though lol .
But , im really bored .
If you are so kind to take your time off & read my blog pls don read my archives cos they're horrible,some made me laugh and some made me wonder why i wrote those ..
okay i've like got sooo many things to say these 2 years but i'll just cut it short.
So i manage to clear my O levels and proceed to poly .
But i don't really enjoy poly life ,i missed the days working in Club NaNa,
it was one of the happiest moments of my life .
Maybe because of the env , and got to know alot of people .
And most importantly ,i got to know someone who's part of my life now :)
well, okay i guess there are some point of time in my life that fucks me but i couldn't get over it at first , because there wasnt any form of commmunication or solving of problems .
But now i know everytime things happen,i shouldn't run away from it & should face it .
okay it's damn easy to say,but effing hard to do .
People judge me by my looks thinking im strong, but no .
I may be damn stupid to admit im weak or fragile inside , but that's me .
and pls don't ever mess with my heart be it friends ,family or boyfriend .
you don't know what will happen .
I can be very positive and crazy at times ,
but when im pessimistic,i will do the craziest things ever ,maybe it isn't a good thing but that's my way of dealing with things i guess .
Anyway there are SOO much more things i wanna type,but im lazy LOL.
so i'll just end this post off with the hope that everything will remain as it is ,as smoothly as now .
Lastly,don fuck around with me,thank you .
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