JUNJIE : I really hope you understand whats the prob . These few days have been really hard to pass . We have been together for so long alr . but i don understand why cant you understand what i want . I want the past us , when we were so happy & understanding towards each other ,when we were so committed & faithful ,& we always put in effort to solve the prob when sth goes wrong . But now why ? why is it this way ..why cant you listen to me , i know you have your personal life but this kind of thing keep on ringing bells in my mind .. you know how i feel , cos in the past if my guy friends asked me out . you dislike it & i compromise with you .. Im a girl ,& im more sensitive to thse kind of issues . and all the things that happened these few days didnt stop . But cant you sacrifice for me & make it stop ? I don know why i am torturing myself , it seems like the only way to sleep is to drink . Im really tired of my life .. In the past , ppl talked behind my back,scold me , run away from home, get into police station for dono how many times , mix with bad friends & got into trouble ,went to family counselling,psychiatrist,school counselling . there was a time i even had to wait at the security guard house & wait for my dad to pick me up . It was like jail. i couldnt go anywhere except home & school . Principal asked my mum send me to hostel or girls home .. My life was really like hell that time. i regretted walking that path . and after we got together , you're the first guy the i can feel the sincerity there . you're the first guy that made me touched . you're the first that made me trust you . you're the first that made me feel secure and heartwarming . you're the first to make me happy with all your surprises . you're the first that can make me change for the better . & you're the first & last i wanna have. But why has it become this way now ? we said we must work together .. so can you prove it to me now ? dono why tears seem to flow when i typed this post .
HELLO . I got the Edusave bursary HAHA cant believe it sucha lousy student got $250 . I am BORED . VERY VERY BORED .. REAL BORED . EXTREMELY BORED . I MISS MY FRIENDS , MY HAPPY TIMES , MY EVERYTHING . okay i know this is lame . goodbye my puny lil sad life
hello (: went to SPCA on sat the dogs there are so pitiful ): cant adopt one cos i need to be 21 to do that .. i love the husky i saw , thunder (: ytd got my pay . i hit the target and sold $1500 of shoes so my commission is quite alot . and the boss praised me :D then my mum gave me a Coach wallet . so many things to be happy about (: now saving money for shopping during my holiday trip .. and next year driving licence :DD I looked at all my sec1,2,3 friends' blogs . ans suddenly felt so dumb & stupid . why did i walked the wrong path ? and the excitement in the past is all an illusion .. so what if i regretted it ? time wont turn back for an ordinary person like me .. but how i wish it does & i will be in a tertiary institution now & keep in contact with all those friends instead of the ''bad'' ones .. but to think of it ,i gained an experience that they never had .. i once had the bad,so now i will have the best even in future ..
Guess what ? i bought myself shoes again from the shoe shop im working at. haven't get pay alr spent some of it . haha . but the designs are unique though cos this brand is from Europe . gonna be busy this whole week . working alot of days & feeeling tired alr . ytd sis called me ,i haven't met her in awhile . was thinking of meeting her next week after i get my pay to go shop. but next week im working 6 days ! cos of those irresponsible workers who nvr come the last min & i have to help to cover . and also saw alot of ppl whom i know =.= but i guess i shall request one more day off . cos next thurs is me & banana's 7th mth WOW huh ?i didnt expect him to break my record of having the longest r/s for 7 mth. haha . so thurs no work . If sat also no work can meet sis (: i need to buy a bag and maybe save up to buy a dog ? cos i have all i need .. okay i gotta stop here . later gg work again (: BYEBYE :D
today's post is lame . hello . no work today . so i went for facial . freaking painful to feel the needles poking your face . the beautician was my mum's fren she was nice , after treatment all that . she gave me samples of mask all that .. im looking forward to pay day !!! there are alot of things i wanna buy. so have to decide quickly as well as save abit . haha, okay im addicted to bubble tea & the pearls ! lol i wanna cut my hair real soon, wanna change my hairstyle cos im sick of this . browsing through the internet for some hairstyles but cant find any =.= okay im gg to buy bubble tea bye !!! haha
No work today ! :D but im soooo bored at home . just now they called and said tmr i will be working half day only . how can they change it so suddenly ): i wanna earn more $$$$ . made a friend there cos she is the same age as me . luckily she found this job or i will be stuck with ppl much older than me . & those fucking foreign workers keep on doing construction. using a fucked up hammer to knock . SO NOISY ! arghhhhhh . nvr spare a thought for ppl sleeping . nth to blog about alr =.=
Hello ! this is the first time i like my job . the boss is nice,the location is good & the ppl there are great (: this sat im gg with lydia to an old folk's home to do volunteery work. to kill time as well as to find the joy of helping others . cos i want ppl to help me too when im old. LOL. and also to add credit to my life haha maybe in my next life i will have a better life . i also sent the volunteer application form for SPCA. really love dogs but don get to have them ):
& as for training ,im starting to like training . but dono whether i will still continue after the lessons finish . Muay thai really made an impact in my life , it was the one which made to change for the better . and it was the first art & hobby that made me stay in it for 1year plus . amazing huh ? cos usually im only interested in a thing for awhile .
As for friends,well i really felt that i neglected sis since i started studying . she was really a great friend for 5 years , always being there for me , but didnt contact each other as much now. although we have our things to be busy with, but i hope our friendship is still the same. although we may not contact as often now, but the happy memories can never be erased or replaced (: As for my other good friends , i wont forget you all !
As for r/s , it has been half a year . time really flies & it has been a long time since i was with a guy for so long . banana's a great bf :D although we really have alot of quarrels since dono when .. but i guess every prob can be solved as long as we work together . who know what will happen it the future ? but i just wanna say i really treasure the present (: the memories he gave me will stay for as long as i live, although we got our own things to stress about . but i hope to share the burden with you and not adding . faith,trust,commitment & love these are the impt things & im sure i have all these (: what about you ?
