JUNJIE : I really hope you understand whats the prob .
These few days have been really hard to pass .
We have been together for so long alr .
but i don understand why cant you understand what i want .
I want the past us , when we were so happy & understanding towards each other ,when we were so committed & faithful ,& we always put in effort to solve the prob when sth goes wrong .
But now why ? why is it this way ..why cant you listen to me ,
i know you have your personal life but this kind of thing keep on ringing bells in my mind ..
you know how i feel , cos in the past if my guy friends asked me out . you dislike it & i compromise with you ..
Im a girl ,& im more sensitive to thse kind of issues .
and all the things that happened these few days didnt stop . But cant you sacrifice for me & make it stop ?
I don know why i am torturing myself ,
it seems like the only way to sleep is to drink .
Im really tired of my life ..
In the past , ppl talked behind my back,scold me , run away from home, get into police station for dono how many times ,
mix with bad friends & got into trouble ,went to family counselling,psychiatrist,school counselling .
there was a time i even had to wait at the security guard house & wait for my dad to pick me up . It was like jail.
i couldnt go anywhere except home & school .
Principal asked my mum send me to hostel or girls home ..
My life was really like hell that time.
i regretted walking that path .
and after we got together ,
you're the first guy the i can feel the sincerity there .
you're the first guy that made me touched .
you're the first that made me trust you .
you're the first that made me feel secure and heartwarming .
you're the first to make me happy with all your surprises .
you're the first that can make me change for the better .
& you're the first & last i wanna have.
But why has it become this way now ?
we said we must work together ..
so can you prove it to me now ?
dono why tears seem to flow when i typed this post .
