ouh

It's back to haunt me again .
Medicine = useless
somehow nowadays i prefer smoking red , gives me more amount of relaxation.
I don't put as high hopes as before now,because everytime i do,i end up fcuking disappointed.
I can't use the word tired anymore , because im tired of being tired.

:|

may have adopted a more positive outlook in life ?
man,should i just endure for 3 more years in school or do the things i wanna do before i die .

speechless

nothing to say . IMMA speechless

:(

I feel so complicated inside .
I DON WANT !
it feels different , feels weird.
after so many stupid & childish quarrels .
they say the r/s usually gets stronger after that but things are turning out the wrong way ,maybe cos we handled it wrongly.
my energy is drained ..
im sick of pretending to smile when i feel unhappy.
I'm gonna do something about it ,because i love you.
this cannot go on any further , the fucked up feelings of mine.
but it takes 2 hands to clap.
are you willing to put in the effort & clap with me ?

FML .

Seriously, i wanna quit school and take up beauty courses outside.
should i go ahead with my rash decision or continue being the typical s'porean studying to get a diploma to survive .
I should get a life now,since the person i wanted most to care,didn't .
nevermind ,im gonna stop whining alr,cos im getting irritating.

>:(

I only got three words to say : FUCK MY LIFE .
I know it sounds pessimistic or whatever ,but ,im feeling exactly this way right now,right at this moment,and again im alone in my room whining about it .
Why can't there be like anyone beside me when im suddenly PMS-ing .
I want time to stop now ,i don't want tomorrow to come,no no no !!!
Ouh, just fuck it .
why am i saying all these crap here,since ppl won't bother to notice or whatever .
Yes,im seeking attention now,that's what i need now,care and attention .
I'm greedy , curse me .

Yo what's up my niggas .

I'm so nervous about tmr !
omfg , what should i wear ?
formal teacher attire =.= no shorts,no slippers,no jeans FML .
so tired these few days ,didn't sleep well ,which idk why .
heard that there may be no school for the whole of next week cos of E learning week,
OMG DEAR GOD,I PRAY THAT IT'S TRUE PLEASE :)))))))
How i dread Wednesdays and especially Thursdays,longest days in school,longest time to get the fuck home .
That day i poured everything out in my heart , about my 'nice' lil family .
Somehow i feel that im getting more and more 'fragile' as the days go by .
more prone to getting teared eyes .
I don't want that,i hate myself for being sucha weakling !
maybe it's some sort of an impact left during my pathetic childhood days .
All that beatings ,cursing,swearing was really enough ,enough .
I wanna be how i was after all those ,immune to stuff .
But it's not easy,cos im a human with emotions everyone has .
And when YOU said : they don't understand,I understand .
I felt ecstatic for a moment, yet fearful that there will be a day you wouldn't wanna understand anymore . But im really gald there's finally YOU in my 'emo' days when i needed someone , cos you weren't in any of those days before when you're busy or when i didn't wanna let you know in order not to add on to your burden .
I ought to feel blessed right ? cos i do HAVE someone there,and not just anyone ,but a special someone .
How i wish time would just stop everytime i'm with you . Do you feel the same ?
Okay guys,sorry to whine so much in my posts .. But i guess LIFE= life isn't fucking easy . haha !

gosh

It's sad Sunday again ,tmr Monday blues .
OH MAN, Why isn't there a holiday for poly students tmr ?!
I don wanna go school :(((((((((((((((((((((
I want my beauty sleep , i want to finish the Breaking dawn book,i wanna see my mushroom . LOL .