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today went to a birthday party .
then went home early cos its damn freaking hot !
i was sweating like hell , and i saw JW and some ex sch mates .
LOL . okay la nothing much to blog about.
except , tmr is sch day AGAIN ):
CHINESE INTENSIVE IS KILLING US !!!!!! __ HAHA

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i randomly turned on Channel U when i was damn bored
and discovered a really awesome show !!!
okay its a korean show too bad i miss the first few episodes .
The show : BOYS OVER FLOWERS
two eligible guys fighting for a cute girl
i think both of them make the cut
and they are every girl's dream guy .
compare & choose ! :D

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Im so worn out !
tasting Chinese since Wed and gonna continue with it till friday .
today was the worst ! Paper 1 & 2 completed in one day .
7 periods of chinese OMFGGGG .
but its okay i have just have to grit my teeth and bear with it for 5 more days only !
then here comes the O level chinese.
I MUST GET A2 !!!! If i dont i think im gonna bang my head alr haha .
okay im gonna stop this talk about studies .


today Ms thomas showed us about a rather interesting video of SHANGRI LA .
It's not the shangri la hotel in SG don misunderstand .
Its a place where you find happiness ,peace and long life.
its kinda a myth but i believe there is still such a place in this world
maybe its at the ends of the Earth .
But if you don think of it as literally a place ,
its a place in our imagination where we find our true self ,where we find true happiness and peace that lies beneath the fucked up world we live in .
Have you guys ever felt really tired of living in a realistic world full of
wars,betrayal,lies,selfishness & hatred ?
well,i guess everyone does at times when its a point of downturn .
so why do God created us ? I guess everything has a reason and purpose behind it right ?
Some ppl come into your life for a reason ,to teach you life skills that only can be attained from experience ,when they leave it means that their mission is accomplished .
so guys,don think of a person leaving you as a bad thing ,it may be a blessing in disguise for you to find someone better or to learn from your experience .
Hatred is a very strong,whether its right to use it or not all depends on your mindset .
being indifferent is better than hating someone ,this is real true .
so learn to let go and think in a calm state of mind to reminisce about your past wrongdoings .
from here,you may find you very own Shangri la in your heart where you search for you soul,your true self. For example , a person who is using all the underhand means to get what they want may really sit down and think,and suddenly remembered that they were so sweet,innocent ppl in the past
humans are born to be pure ,but why have the humans grown up to become ppl like these ?
its may be the fact that having endured so much before,they thought being ''bad'' would make them feel better .
But its your mind which is playing tricks on you , that lead a person to become changed .
i wanna find my Shangri La too, to find true happiness and peace there .
this way,we'll be happier people right ?
and we can fufil the purpose God gave us when we're here .

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LOL ! today after a long day of MTL intensive finally got sth to laugh about =x
i took photos of yeow kiat.
its multiple shots SO YOU WILL SEE HIS HEAD MOVING UP LOL !
im so bad. SHHH !

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i almost cant wake up today to meet B & N in sch
haha guess im suffering from insomnia alr .
afternoon met up with my 2 cousins.
shopped ard town & bugis .
Im so happy ! in the end,
i bought a Topshop polo tee ,a high-waist jeans shorts & 2 cute tee shirts ! :D
then i got a headache as usual ):
okay im starting to get really nervous .
chinese O's is coming in 2 weeks time & i don wanna retake it again lor.
mugging mugging mugging . . . . .
wish me & my frens luck ! :D
GOD BLESS US ALL ! HAHA (x

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hello people !
today is a friday .
Stayed back in sch but kana caught by O.A.J to do chinese .
in the end i still ran away xD
then played basketball in the rain haha .
at night,me & ZF wanted to watch Friday the 13 but its not showing anymore !
so we watched ''The Uninvited '' instead .
quite a lame show,but at least its not boring .
before the movie started we went to the ERP gantry again !
but this time its wet cos of the rain .
and i was like in a squatting position like im shitting HAHA !
& saw the gym gang LOL . sucha coincidence
then took a bounce train back and talked about alot of funny ''past'' stuff
yeah so tmr im gg to school provided i can wake up.then meeting my cousins !
okay la here are some random photos we took ! ENJOY ! :D Ciaos !


FUCK THE BLOG WHERE IS MY BACKGROUND ):

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okay im gonna post a short post cos Nurul says my blog is very dull alr .haha !
well,lets talk about Sat .
I went out with ZF and we watched Horsemen :D
it was kinda gorey with all the killing scenes.
and the girl beside me jumped when there is a sudden loud sound effect LOL
then after which,we walked around some shopping centres and find it boring.
so i took him to where Nafiz took us that time, the ERP GANTRY !
it's a damn cool place ,watching the cars drive from above.
then talk & talked about school days blah blah blah .
after which ,we took a bounce train home.
It was kinda fun though although he may seem quiet but actually he crack funny jokes.
he told me a story bout my ex sch mate when he was sec 1 or 2 .
he got bullied by the classmates and the guy took A 20CENT COIN to cut himself!
LOL,he stared at his classmates while doing that. it was the funniest ''suicide'' story i heard .
okay la,gonna end it here now .

COUNTDOWN : 5 more months to O levels .
2 more weeks to O level Chinese :S
see ya'll !





everything is starting to fall in place (:
Nostalgia & reminisce

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COUNTDOWN : 6 MORE MTHS AFTER O'S
sorry guys,i cant upload the fight videos cos its simply too lagg .








love my imperfections , love me,accept me for who i am or i will diss you .

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TOP OF THE ERP .

TIME FLIES .

SEE YA'LL AFTER O'S !

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totally moodless these few days.
ytd went to east coast with sis .
felt much better and woke up late today ,
then went to NP to celebrate Yvonne's birthday ,
came back home again.
after a few days of thinking,i have made a decision.
but i have to really firm in my stand this time .
really gonna work hard for O levels.
since i have come so far , i cant give up now .
maybe wont blog for a very long time till after Os ?
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And so i skipped school for half a day.
thoughts came running through my mind since yesterday .
sometimes , people get fucked in their miserable lives
while other are enjoying the sweetness of happiness .
people always ask, why is the world so unfair ?
I was thinking about this question too .
but i guess i cannot ''self-pity'' cos its a kind of action when you give up on yourself .
my body is not well , it may be the emotional hurt that is caused to cause this physical hurt .
yesterday,i was enaging in self-pity .
like what i did the other time , i drank the cough syrup again .
so that i can sleeeeep and not to think about any other stuffs .
i look down on myself for being like this ,
but sometimes ppl just cant help it bout the things they do .
If im gonna start anew , everything will HAVE to go smoothly as i planned
but is it possible ?
well , there is no point to say so much right now .


I still hate you for what you did ,
i wont forgive you again.
cause i made a wrong choice to forgive ,
as you proved to me that you are not the guy i used to know .
totally different .

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Still in CNY mood .
not school today for me of course
haha , 1st day went to relatives home.
then at night went Zhengda'a house to drink .
after that went rounding for like really one round without the helmet.
then cab home .
2nd day, went to relatives house again.
after that that stupid banana come my house .
then went home early.
today went banana's house .
after that headed to Sakura for boss's treat (:
hongbao very big haha .
okay tmr is school day again.
fuck . i totally hate my mixed emotions now .


US & ah gong

me,my ma de & fat ass bro

the stupid cousins

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Hey guys.
wont be updating much.
mugging for O's now .
but will update for CNY.
maybe gonna go Zhengde's house to drink or sth for CNY.
lol , help his mum cook . so lame .
cos the coincidence is his mum work the same place as me
These few days were boring in school.
2 mock exams just passed .
and im gonna fail haha .

The topic for today :LOVE
anyone knows how to define love ?
to couples in love ,it is a fairytale .
to singles, it is a dream to reach out to .
some ppl may think love is unconditional,but turns out its the other way round .
but to me, its just a dumb thing make ppl lose their minds for the other party and even to the extent of commiting suicide .
ppl will tend to feel afraid to trust again
thats what they say ''once bitten,twice shy ''
so if you ever want to step into a r/s, think twice .
is he gonna take care of you for life & can you trust him ?
If you are just playing with the person,then stop wasting your time . because in the end, you get nothing good out of it .
The big question is how do some married last till old age ?
simple , it is faith & commitment .
when they register their marriage , its for life.
and they take the vow that will stay with them forever .
but to youngster like us,the old goes and the new one comes right ? but they may not really like the new party .
the reason is simple,when you feel empty in your heart and alone . you cant get used to the life when nobody texts or call you everyday, nobody show concern for you .
so in order to fill up this gap,a new one comes .
another problem with r/s is the third party.
in soap operas we always see the man finding another woman .
well , nowadays even the woman are finding another man.
Its a mistake , yes ,but why do they do that ?
this is a problem b/w the both parties .
be it communication, or cos of new excitement .
For youngsters in ''love'' , they don last.
cos its just pure infatuation .
and the hormones that make bothe parties attracted to each other . after some time, the feeling fades off .
they always say '' I love you ''
but do they really mean it ?
most of the time,no.
cos after some time,its a break up .
so you know love is a thing that can make ppl happily crazy or mentally crazy .
It is somehow a scary thing in some way .
you never know when your heart is gonna be stabbed .
maybe not for the first few mths of happiness ,it always comes after that .
so people, think carefully before you commit yourself into a r/s
you always have your right one waiting for you in some corner of the world .
but sometimes,the time is not right yet .

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another moodless day.
slept till 5plus .
and woke up feeling groggy .
I wanna go drink , drink, drink !
who wants to come along ?



cos you're hot and you're cold .
I hate it !

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hello babes & dudes (:
Just a random post of my thoughts .
No bitches & bastards allowed to view
LOL .
I was viewing other ppl's blog , i mean my ex classmates .
I saw how they have such lovely boyfriends to dote on them .
well,i guess everyone's love life is diff .
you don always get the good guy .
and i have never really gotten one very great guy in my life .
maybe i tot there was ,but turned out that i was wrong.
So what if i experienced being in a r/s many times .
I never really think before i accept a r/s .
well , that is ''love'' for you .
Love is sth hard to define .
I saw how they are doing so well in polys or JCs .
I felt really jealous,why is my life different .
i guess it was the path i chose myself ,cant blame anyone
ended up having to take O's at only 18 .
and my mum is scolding me for not gg school today,
I hate it la. FUCK YOU !
YA YA i always do this , is my attitude prob .
you cant stand it anymore i also cant okay ,
you think im the only one who have nonsense huh ?
FUCK ! one day nvr go school is the end of the world is it ?
is like hello ? you think i want this ?
did you put yourself in my shoes .
yes i admit i cant take stress thats my bad point .
But i just cant accept the fact that i may flung my O's .
oh my f**** , don wanna say anymore (:
Anyway i found out my frenster was finally deleted yay (:


fuck humans,fuck life,fuck myself .

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fuck !
damn suay , banded but monster still teaching me !!
argh,im gg crazy anytime .
so stressed up !
fucked up O levels .
i wanna get along with all the teachers , but sometimes ppl just wont change the bad impression they have on you .
when you did sth bad,ppl will rmb it for life,
but when you do sth good,ppl wont appreciate it .
i guess that is the world for you .

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Just came back from cafe after a nice Rosti meal .
School sucks today, kb by monster .
lol , i seriously hope to have all the last year's teachers back ):
haha anyway the photo below is took by serene
when we walked out of the cafe, i think the uncle is drunk or sth. just slept likedat on the bench
omg. so unglam .
im so bad to post it =X
okay now im doing my homework .
haha , haven complete alot alot .
next mon half day cos of the ''good'' O level results .
but better than nothing .
CNY come quickly !!!! :D

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Just woke up from a long but fun night ytd ! (:
at first met up with sis then go over to Jonathon's house to drink.
after that im feeling bored as they all keep on talk crap when they are drunk LOL.
so went to Safra & waited for Banana & company (:
the first stop was Geylang, fei fei mian .
after that was Mount Faber (:
was a damn dizzy ride !!! ppl was looking as those crazy guys keep on rounding the hill .
then went to someplace where couples like to put newspapers to cover the car windows while they are ''doing that''
LOL !and those lame guys go disturb haha then i guess the couple were shocked .
after that Lowers seletar and finally 418.
I tried to drive (:
about 4 rounds , damn thrilling can.
but too bad its not on the road , sian .
at one point go over the kerb & last round when i brake accidentally press on the horn.
damn funny lor,the coffeeshop uncles keep on looking .
last stop was sembawang .
cos they wanna find oil, LOL.
''zoot you'' ,so lame .
haha then finally home sweet home ((:
Greatest night ever ! I want to take my dad's car out to drive some day ! HEHE :D

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hello !
just came back .
school sucks today !
almost fell asleep in class .
first period monster come in LOL.
kay la she is abit better than before alr ..
after school bell ring so happy ! :D
went home eat & went to Khatib CC to meet vonn&serene .
i intro them the cafe & they are addicted to it alr :D
after that went outside & talk for like damn long .
haha alot of stupid things to talk about ..
then finally went home
and i just bathed, such a relaxation ! (:
& now i feel like sleeping ):
luckily tmr school starts late .
thurs gg NYP to visit .
go there liike a few times alr so boring
we still have to come back ourselves cos the sch is jus too budget !can collapse anytime lor . haha .
next mon gotta stay back again cos need to see ppl take O level results .
and CNY is coming (:
feb is Valentine's day .
awwww .i wonder who will be my date that day uh ? LOL !
okay thats all folks !

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wow , today finally start work again .
very tired after standing so long .
after that, junjie text me ask me out for dinner ,
so he waited for me after work .
went to KFC , then headed back to my house there .
cos gotta pass him cookies .
one more thing, banana you become more zi lian alr lor !
lol , keep on taking photos when im not in my best .
slacked awhile then he went home with his frens on the lorry
LOL.
yeah so im back home now.
gotta sleep soon.
school tmr ! :D
GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE .