):

TOP OF THE ERP .

TIME FLIES .

SEE YA'LL AFTER O'S !

(:

totally moodless these few days.
ytd went to east coast with sis .
felt much better and woke up late today ,
then went to NP to celebrate Yvonne's birthday ,
came back home again.
after a few days of thinking,i have made a decision.
but i have to really firm in my stand this time .
really gonna work hard for O levels.
since i have come so far , i cant give up now .
maybe wont blog for a very long time till after Os ?
(:

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And so i skipped school for half a day.
thoughts came running through my mind since yesterday .
sometimes , people get fucked in their miserable lives
while other are enjoying the sweetness of happiness .
people always ask, why is the world so unfair ?
I was thinking about this question too .
but i guess i cannot ''self-pity'' cos its a kind of action when you give up on yourself .
my body is not well , it may be the emotional hurt that is caused to cause this physical hurt .
yesterday,i was enaging in self-pity .
like what i did the other time , i drank the cough syrup again .
so that i can sleeeeep and not to think about any other stuffs .
i look down on myself for being like this ,
but sometimes ppl just cant help it bout the things they do .
If im gonna start anew , everything will HAVE to go smoothly as i planned
but is it possible ?
well , there is no point to say so much right now .


I still hate you for what you did ,
i wont forgive you again.
cause i made a wrong choice to forgive ,
as you proved to me that you are not the guy i used to know .
totally different .

(:

Still in CNY mood .
not school today for me of course
haha , 1st day went to relatives home.
then at night went Zhengda'a house to drink .
after that went rounding for like really one round without the helmet.
then cab home .
2nd day, went to relatives house again.
after that that stupid banana come my house .
then went home early.
today went banana's house .
after that headed to Sakura for boss's treat (:
hongbao very big haha .
okay tmr is school day again.
fuck . i totally hate my mixed emotions now .


US & ah gong

me,my ma de & fat ass bro

the stupid cousins

(:

Hey guys.
wont be updating much.
mugging for O's now .
but will update for CNY.
maybe gonna go Zhengde's house to drink or sth for CNY.
lol , help his mum cook . so lame .
cos the coincidence is his mum work the same place as me
These few days were boring in school.
2 mock exams just passed .
and im gonna fail haha .

The topic for today :LOVE
anyone knows how to define love ?
to couples in love ,it is a fairytale .
to singles, it is a dream to reach out to .
some ppl may think love is unconditional,but turns out its the other way round .
but to me, its just a dumb thing make ppl lose their minds for the other party and even to the extent of commiting suicide .
ppl will tend to feel afraid to trust again
thats what they say ''once bitten,twice shy ''
so if you ever want to step into a r/s, think twice .
is he gonna take care of you for life & can you trust him ?
If you are just playing with the person,then stop wasting your time . because in the end, you get nothing good out of it .
The big question is how do some married last till old age ?
simple , it is faith & commitment .
when they register their marriage , its for life.
and they take the vow that will stay with them forever .
but to youngster like us,the old goes and the new one comes right ? but they may not really like the new party .
the reason is simple,when you feel empty in your heart and alone . you cant get used to the life when nobody texts or call you everyday, nobody show concern for you .
so in order to fill up this gap,a new one comes .
another problem with r/s is the third party.
in soap operas we always see the man finding another woman .
well , nowadays even the woman are finding another man.
Its a mistake , yes ,but why do they do that ?
this is a problem b/w the both parties .
be it communication, or cos of new excitement .
For youngsters in ''love'' , they don last.
cos its just pure infatuation .
and the hormones that make bothe parties attracted to each other . after some time, the feeling fades off .
they always say '' I love you ''
but do they really mean it ?
most of the time,no.
cos after some time,its a break up .
so you know love is a thing that can make ppl happily crazy or mentally crazy .
It is somehow a scary thing in some way .
you never know when your heart is gonna be stabbed .
maybe not for the first few mths of happiness ,it always comes after that .
so people, think carefully before you commit yourself into a r/s
you always have your right one waiting for you in some corner of the world .
but sometimes,the time is not right yet .

(:

another moodless day.
slept till 5plus .
and woke up feeling groggy .
I wanna go drink , drink, drink !
who wants to come along ?



cos you're hot and you're cold .
I hate it !

(:

hello babes & dudes (:
Just a random post of my thoughts .
No bitches & bastards allowed to view
LOL .
I was viewing other ppl's blog , i mean my ex classmates .
I saw how they have such lovely boyfriends to dote on them .
well,i guess everyone's love life is diff .
you don always get the good guy .
and i have never really gotten one very great guy in my life .
maybe i tot there was ,but turned out that i was wrong.
So what if i experienced being in a r/s many times .
I never really think before i accept a r/s .
well , that is ''love'' for you .
Love is sth hard to define .
I saw how they are doing so well in polys or JCs .
I felt really jealous,why is my life different .
i guess it was the path i chose myself ,cant blame anyone
ended up having to take O's at only 18 .
and my mum is scolding me for not gg school today,
I hate it la. FUCK YOU !
YA YA i always do this , is my attitude prob .
you cant stand it anymore i also cant okay ,
you think im the only one who have nonsense huh ?
FUCK ! one day nvr go school is the end of the world is it ?
is like hello ? you think i want this ?
did you put yourself in my shoes .
yes i admit i cant take stress thats my bad point .
But i just cant accept the fact that i may flung my O's .
oh my f**** , don wanna say anymore (:
Anyway i found out my frenster was finally deleted yay (:


fuck humans,fuck life,fuck myself .

(:

fuck !
damn suay , banded but monster still teaching me !!
argh,im gg crazy anytime .
so stressed up !
fucked up O levels .
i wanna get along with all the teachers , but sometimes ppl just wont change the bad impression they have on you .
when you did sth bad,ppl will rmb it for life,
but when you do sth good,ppl wont appreciate it .
i guess that is the world for you .

(:

Just came back from cafe after a nice Rosti meal .
School sucks today, kb by monster .
lol , i seriously hope to have all the last year's teachers back ):
haha anyway the photo below is took by serene
when we walked out of the cafe, i think the uncle is drunk or sth. just slept likedat on the bench
omg. so unglam .
im so bad to post it =X
okay now im doing my homework .
haha , haven complete alot alot .
next mon half day cos of the ''good'' O level results .
but better than nothing .
CNY come quickly !!!! :D

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Just woke up from a long but fun night ytd ! (:
at first met up with sis then go over to Jonathon's house to drink.
after that im feeling bored as they all keep on talk crap when they are drunk LOL.
so went to Safra & waited for Banana & company (:
the first stop was Geylang, fei fei mian .
after that was Mount Faber (:
was a damn dizzy ride !!! ppl was looking as those crazy guys keep on rounding the hill .
then went to someplace where couples like to put newspapers to cover the car windows while they are ''doing that''
LOL !and those lame guys go disturb haha then i guess the couple were shocked .
after that Lowers seletar and finally 418.
I tried to drive (:
about 4 rounds , damn thrilling can.
but too bad its not on the road , sian .
at one point go over the kerb & last round when i brake accidentally press on the horn.
damn funny lor,the coffeeshop uncles keep on looking .
last stop was sembawang .
cos they wanna find oil, LOL.
''zoot you'' ,so lame .
haha then finally home sweet home ((:
Greatest night ever ! I want to take my dad's car out to drive some day ! HEHE :D

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hello !
just came back .
school sucks today !
almost fell asleep in class .
first period monster come in LOL.
kay la she is abit better than before alr ..
after school bell ring so happy ! :D
went home eat & went to Khatib CC to meet vonn&serene .
i intro them the cafe & they are addicted to it alr :D
after that went outside & talk for like damn long .
haha alot of stupid things to talk about ..
then finally went home
and i just bathed, such a relaxation ! (:
& now i feel like sleeping ):
luckily tmr school starts late .
thurs gg NYP to visit .
go there liike a few times alr so boring
we still have to come back ourselves cos the sch is jus too budget !can collapse anytime lor . haha .
next mon gotta stay back again cos need to see ppl take O level results .
and CNY is coming (:
feb is Valentine's day .
awwww .i wonder who will be my date that day uh ? LOL !
okay thats all folks !

(:

wow , today finally start work again .
very tired after standing so long .
after that, junjie text me ask me out for dinner ,
so he waited for me after work .
went to KFC , then headed back to my house there .
cos gotta pass him cookies .
one more thing, banana you become more zi lian alr lor !
lol , keep on taking photos when im not in my best .
slacked awhile then he went home with his frens on the lorry
LOL.
yeah so im back home now.
gotta sleep soon.
school tmr ! :D
GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE .

(:

countdown at Marina bay !
haha,damn squeezy after tht.
stupid bangalas. fuck .
after that went carpenter street drink .
and there was no cab when we want to go home .
so we sat on the trishaw to liang court.
finally after 2 hrs ,we got a cab (:
home sweet home,
next day was Ziteng 21st birthday.
so went to drink once again
he was like so funny when he's drunk .
after that got to know more frens .
reached house downstair ,sth stupid happened .
slept at 7 in the morning ,
but got woke up by ppl .
cos another thing happened .
damn tiring lor ..
haha thats all for today post !
gg work alr no time ,gotta rush

me & birthday boy. i look fat.omg

kah hwa & ruiliang . lol .

yummy !!!

he loves the bag . haha .

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Hello .
i got alot of things to blog about ,
when i get the photos then i will update again (:
thanks for viewing !

(:

Last day of 2008 .
last day that i will drown in my sorrows .
lol . met up with him yesterday .
chat for quite awhile ..
talking about some of the past made us laugh .
well, i guess its always better to have a friend than enemy .
hating someone is torturing .
lets just forgive & forget .
i will live happier this way too .
whats meant to be yours will be yours one day no matter what happens , so let fate decide everything .
today going marina COUNTDOWN !!
for a new year,a new start ,a new beginning .
maybe after gg sing K ?
not sure too ..


HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !
BEST WISHES (:

(:

tmr is the last day of 2008 ,the last day i will drop tears for you.
for this 1 year, things happened,people walked out of my life.
I gotta grow up to be even stronger than before.
what havent i encounter before ?
and was worse than all these ..
if i could walk out of the past,why not now .
life goes on , and many people are worse off than me .
but im still human , my emotions are still there .
its up to me to get rid of it .
dono why seems like im overwhelmed with emotions when i typed this post about my ''sad'' life .
tears dropped like before,but its never the same again .

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sorry no pictures to update yet .
as my hair is freaking short ):
that day went to Seoul garden with class-mates !
last gathering before school reopens .
yesterday went to meet up with lydia .
guess what !
i saw LOW KAI MING.
the first guy whom im ''crazy'' about
LOL. its so weird though .
we just walked pass each other .
and he came to slack with us later on .
but he have really changed.
to become a more mature person.
As to girls , he is still a BASTARD i guess from the way he talk .
i was thinking , fate is really a funny thing.
he's my first & ran with another girl too .
once this last & worst one was gone .
we bumped into each other once more .
is god trying to play a trick ?
anyway its all in the past .
and i guess me & him can be considered normal frens since he has become normal not like the crazy guy he used to be .
well , humans are born for a reason .
that is , i believe , to search in every corner of the world for the one that can really give them unconditional love .
but love can be a very cruel thing too .
when the one you trusted most turns out to be the ugliest of all .
well,i guess everyone's life is different .
some may have better lives,but some is slogging away to keep their lives.
life is a mystery .
open it yourself .

I just got fucked by my mind playing tricks

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next year taking O levels gonna be damn busy studying .
no time to think about bullshit stuff ,
Anyway im deleting my friendster acc people !
GUESS WHAT? I CUT MY HAIR SHORT !!!!!
BE A NUN . LOL !!!

TO YOU !!! :
people out there , there's a saying.
what goes around comes around .
ppl will get their desserts one day .
whats the point of wanting to talk to me NOW ?
when i wanted to TALK TO YOU, DID YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE ?
you ever thought of how i FELT WHEN YOU SCOLDED ME , WHEN I FEEL LIKE IM BEING STEPPED ON LIKE SHIT ?!
HELL NO !
I waited for you for 2 FUCKING weeks ,
no answer . all i get was words that STABBED RIGHT THROUGH MY FUCKING HEART .
regretted ? guilty ?
don talk BULLSHIT with me yeah .
I FEEL EVEN DUMBER
THE MOST STUPID FOOL IN THE WHOLE WORLD .
27 WAS TODAY . REMEMBER WHAT YOU TOLD ME ?
HAHA I GUESS NOT RIGHT ?!
SO WHAT IF THOSE DAYS WERE WONDERFUL ?
DID YOU TREASURE IT ?
HOW FAST A PERSON'S HEART CAN CHANGE .
JUST ONE DAY SIA ! BROKE UP ON 10TH ONLY LEH.
I AM REALLY SHOCKED BY IT .
TEACH ME LEH ?
YOU THINK YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE FEELING MISERABLE ?
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO CHOSE THIS PATH.
you said: I RATHER BE ALONE THAN ATTACHED TO ANYONE LEH.
HAHA YOU ARE MAKING MY TOES LAUGH .
HYPOCRITE CONTRADICTOR .
SAY ONE THING DO ANOTHER ,
TRYING TO SAY YOU ARE ALONE NOW UH ?
PLS LA,THATS NOT THE CASE .
TRYING TO HAVE THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS UH?
OH PLEASE , DREAM ON !!!!
GUILTY GUILTY GUILTY RMB THIS WORD FOREVER !
AND PLS DON MAKE ME PUKE WITH YOUR PHOTOS AND POSTS MAN .
''DA BIAN'' SIOL ? HAHA ITS THE NAME YOU USED TO CALL ME LEH REMEMBER ''DEAR BANANA'' ?
I didnt know shit can be replaced .
YOU'all WONT COME TO A GOOD END (:
NEXT TIME I SEE YOU , 2 MIDDLE FINGERS & ''PUI'' !!
Oh yes you have NO RIGHTS to be unhappy about what i post.
like you said, YOU'RE THE ONE IN THE WRONG JERK !
Goodbye & enjoy your fat meat. PLS DON CHOKE TO DEATH



THIS PART OF THE SONG IS FOR YOU :
You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You’re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out
An’ don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now
Go on and take a bow
Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on
Ohh, and the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let’s hear your speech out

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雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手我晒干了沉默
悔得很冲动就算这次做错也只是怕错过在一起叫
梦 分开了叫 痛是不是说没有做完的梦最痛迷路的后
果 我能承受这最后的出口
在爱过了才有能不能给我一首歌的时间
静静的把那拥抱变成永远在我的怀里
你不用害怕失眠如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点
雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究你说你不懂我为何在这时牵手我晒干了沉默
悔得很冲动就算这次做错也只是怕错过在一起叫
梦 分开了叫 痛是不是说没有做完的梦最痛迷路的后果
我能承受这最后的出口 在爱过了才有
能不能给我一首歌的时间静静的
把那拥抱变成永远在我的怀里
你不用害怕失眠如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时
把故事听到最后才说再见你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点你说我不该
不该不该在这个时候 说了我爱你要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气请告诉我
暂停算不算放弃我只有那一天的回忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间静静的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见你送我的眼泪
让他留在雨天越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点你说我不该
不该不该在这个时候说了
爱你要怎么证明我没力气告诉我暂停算不算放弃我说我不该
不该在这时候才说爱你要怎么证明我没有力气我只有那一天的回忆

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I received a letter from the Army asking me to sign on .
its quite cool actually but im sure to die there ..
im a girl how come send me this letter ?
keep gg out these few days to kill my time .
went to Escape with serene that day
& it rained for awhile ):
went to play the viking ship for 2 times.
& sat at the last few .
My heart almost really dropped out .
but i don kno why it didnt .
maybe i still have things for me to solve it .
or its just not my time to die yet .
after that Cyn & Lydia came to meet us .
then lydia's frens,shan ji walked pass ..
so he came to chat with us too .
next day, meet them up to slack again .
Shanji was there to entertain us .
he's a chatterbox number 1 ,
This thursday gonna go Kbox cos its SIS BIRTHDAY !! :D
will sing out hearts out .
today didnt went to work .
im too tired . .
later gonna meet up with Cyn & Lydia again i guess ..