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countdown at Marina bay !
haha,damn squeezy after tht.
stupid bangalas. fuck .
after that went carpenter street drink .
and there was no cab when we want to go home .
so we sat on the trishaw to liang court.
finally after 2 hrs ,we got a cab (:
home sweet home,
next day was Ziteng 21st birthday.
so went to drink once again
he was like so funny when he's drunk .
after that got to know more frens .
reached house downstair ,sth stupid happened .
slept at 7 in the morning ,
but got woke up by ppl .
cos another thing happened .
damn tiring lor ..
haha thats all for today post !
gg work alr no time ,gotta rush

me & birthday boy. i look fat.omg

kah hwa & ruiliang . lol .

yummy !!!

he loves the bag . haha .

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Hello .
i got alot of things to blog about ,
when i get the photos then i will update again (:
thanks for viewing !

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Last day of 2008 .
last day that i will drown in my sorrows .
lol . met up with him yesterday .
chat for quite awhile ..
talking about some of the past made us laugh .
well, i guess its always better to have a friend than enemy .
hating someone is torturing .
lets just forgive & forget .
i will live happier this way too .
whats meant to be yours will be yours one day no matter what happens , so let fate decide everything .
today going marina COUNTDOWN !!
for a new year,a new start ,a new beginning .
maybe after gg sing K ?
not sure too ..


HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !
BEST WISHES (:

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tmr is the last day of 2008 ,the last day i will drop tears for you.
for this 1 year, things happened,people walked out of my life.
I gotta grow up to be even stronger than before.
what havent i encounter before ?
and was worse than all these ..
if i could walk out of the past,why not now .
life goes on , and many people are worse off than me .
but im still human , my emotions are still there .
its up to me to get rid of it .
dono why seems like im overwhelmed with emotions when i typed this post about my ''sad'' life .
tears dropped like before,but its never the same again .

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sorry no pictures to update yet .
as my hair is freaking short ):
that day went to Seoul garden with class-mates !
last gathering before school reopens .
yesterday went to meet up with lydia .
guess what !
i saw LOW KAI MING.
the first guy whom im ''crazy'' about
LOL. its so weird though .
we just walked pass each other .
and he came to slack with us later on .
but he have really changed.
to become a more mature person.
As to girls , he is still a BASTARD i guess from the way he talk .
i was thinking , fate is really a funny thing.
he's my first & ran with another girl too .
once this last & worst one was gone .
we bumped into each other once more .
is god trying to play a trick ?
anyway its all in the past .
and i guess me & him can be considered normal frens since he has become normal not like the crazy guy he used to be .
well , humans are born for a reason .
that is , i believe , to search in every corner of the world for the one that can really give them unconditional love .
but love can be a very cruel thing too .
when the one you trusted most turns out to be the ugliest of all .
well,i guess everyone's life is different .
some may have better lives,but some is slogging away to keep their lives.
life is a mystery .
open it yourself .

I just got fucked by my mind playing tricks

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next year taking O levels gonna be damn busy studying .
no time to think about bullshit stuff ,
Anyway im deleting my friendster acc people !
GUESS WHAT? I CUT MY HAIR SHORT !!!!!
BE A NUN . LOL !!!

TO YOU !!! :
people out there , there's a saying.
what goes around comes around .
ppl will get their desserts one day .
whats the point of wanting to talk to me NOW ?
when i wanted to TALK TO YOU, DID YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE ?
you ever thought of how i FELT WHEN YOU SCOLDED ME , WHEN I FEEL LIKE IM BEING STEPPED ON LIKE SHIT ?!
HELL NO !
I waited for you for 2 FUCKING weeks ,
no answer . all i get was words that STABBED RIGHT THROUGH MY FUCKING HEART .
regretted ? guilty ?
don talk BULLSHIT with me yeah .
I FEEL EVEN DUMBER
THE MOST STUPID FOOL IN THE WHOLE WORLD .
27 WAS TODAY . REMEMBER WHAT YOU TOLD ME ?
HAHA I GUESS NOT RIGHT ?!
SO WHAT IF THOSE DAYS WERE WONDERFUL ?
DID YOU TREASURE IT ?
HOW FAST A PERSON'S HEART CAN CHANGE .
JUST ONE DAY SIA ! BROKE UP ON 10TH ONLY LEH.
I AM REALLY SHOCKED BY IT .
TEACH ME LEH ?
YOU THINK YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE FEELING MISERABLE ?
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO CHOSE THIS PATH.
you said: I RATHER BE ALONE THAN ATTACHED TO ANYONE LEH.
HAHA YOU ARE MAKING MY TOES LAUGH .
HYPOCRITE CONTRADICTOR .
SAY ONE THING DO ANOTHER ,
TRYING TO SAY YOU ARE ALONE NOW UH ?
PLS LA,THATS NOT THE CASE .
TRYING TO HAVE THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS UH?
OH PLEASE , DREAM ON !!!!
GUILTY GUILTY GUILTY RMB THIS WORD FOREVER !
AND PLS DON MAKE ME PUKE WITH YOUR PHOTOS AND POSTS MAN .
''DA BIAN'' SIOL ? HAHA ITS THE NAME YOU USED TO CALL ME LEH REMEMBER ''DEAR BANANA'' ?
I didnt know shit can be replaced .
YOU'all WONT COME TO A GOOD END (:
NEXT TIME I SEE YOU , 2 MIDDLE FINGERS & ''PUI'' !!
Oh yes you have NO RIGHTS to be unhappy about what i post.
like you said, YOU'RE THE ONE IN THE WRONG JERK !
Goodbye & enjoy your fat meat. PLS DON CHOKE TO DEATH



THIS PART OF THE SONG IS FOR YOU :
You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You’re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out
An’ don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now
Go on and take a bow
Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on
Ohh, and the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let’s hear your speech out

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雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手我晒干了沉默
悔得很冲动就算这次做错也只是怕错过在一起叫
梦 分开了叫 痛是不是说没有做完的梦最痛迷路的后
果 我能承受这最后的出口
在爱过了才有能不能给我一首歌的时间
静静的把那拥抱变成永远在我的怀里
你不用害怕失眠如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点
雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究你说你不懂我为何在这时牵手我晒干了沉默
悔得很冲动就算这次做错也只是怕错过在一起叫
梦 分开了叫 痛是不是说没有做完的梦最痛迷路的后果
我能承受这最后的出口 在爱过了才有
能不能给我一首歌的时间静静的
把那拥抱变成永远在我的怀里
你不用害怕失眠如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时
把故事听到最后才说再见你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点你说我不该
不该不该在这个时候 说了我爱你要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气请告诉我
暂停算不算放弃我只有那一天的回忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间静静的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见你送我的眼泪
让他留在雨天越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点你说我不该
不该不该在这个时候说了
爱你要怎么证明我没力气告诉我暂停算不算放弃我说我不该
不该在这时候才说爱你要怎么证明我没有力气我只有那一天的回忆

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I received a letter from the Army asking me to sign on .
its quite cool actually but im sure to die there ..
im a girl how come send me this letter ?
keep gg out these few days to kill my time .
went to Escape with serene that day
& it rained for awhile ):
went to play the viking ship for 2 times.
& sat at the last few .
My heart almost really dropped out .
but i don kno why it didnt .
maybe i still have things for me to solve it .
or its just not my time to die yet .
after that Cyn & Lydia came to meet us .
then lydia's frens,shan ji walked pass ..
so he came to chat with us too .
next day, meet them up to slack again .
Shanji was there to entertain us .
he's a chatterbox number 1 ,
This thursday gonna go Kbox cos its SIS BIRTHDAY !! :D
will sing out hearts out .
today didnt went to work .
im too tired . .
later gonna meet up with Cyn & Lydia again i guess ..

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Feeling so miserable .

JUNJIE : I really hope you understand whats the prob .
These few days have been really hard to pass .
We have been together for so long alr .
but i don understand why cant you understand what i want .
I want the past us , when we were so happy & understanding towards each other ,when we were so committed & faithful ,& we always put in effort to solve the prob when sth goes wrong .
But now why ? why is it this way ..why cant you listen to me ,
i know you have your personal life but this kind of thing keep on ringing bells in my mind ..
you know how i feel , cos in the past if my guy friends asked me out . you dislike it & i compromise with you ..
Im a girl ,& im more sensitive to thse kind of issues .
and all the things that happened these few days didnt stop . But cant you sacrifice for me & make it stop ?
I don know why i am torturing myself ,
it seems like the only way to sleep is to drink .
Im really tired of my life ..
In the past , ppl talked behind my back,scold me , run away from home, get into police station for dono how many times ,
mix with bad friends & got into trouble ,went to family counselling,psychiatrist,school counselling .
there was a time i even had to wait at the security guard house & wait for my dad to pick me up . It was like jail.
i couldnt go anywhere except home & school .
Principal asked my mum send me to hostel or girls home ..
My life was really like hell that time.
i regretted walking that path .
and after we got together ,
you're the first guy the i can feel the sincerity there .
you're the first guy that made me touched .
you're the first that made me trust you .
you're the first that made me feel secure and heartwarming .
you're the first to make me happy with all your surprises .
you're the first that can make me change for the better .
& you're the first & last i wanna have.

But why has it become this way now ?
we said we must work together ..
so can you prove it to me now ?
dono why tears seem to flow when i typed this post .

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27/11/08
Happy 7th month dear !
I love you , & always will (:

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HELLO .
I got the Edusave bursary HAHA cant believe it sucha lousy student got $250 .
I am BORED .
VERY VERY BORED ..
REAL BORED .
EXTREMELY BORED .
I MISS MY FRIENDS ,
MY HAPPY TIMES ,
MY EVERYTHING .
okay i know this is lame .
goodbye my puny lil sad life

SORRY FOR POSTING SUCHA LAME POST !

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hello (:
went to SPCA on sat
the dogs there are so pitiful ):
cant adopt one cos i need to be 21 to do that ..
i love the husky i saw , thunder (:
ytd got my pay .
i hit the target and sold $1500 of shoes
so my commission is quite alot .
and the boss praised me :D
then my mum gave me a Coach wallet .
so many things to be happy about (:
now saving money for shopping during my holiday trip ..
and next year driving licence :DD
I looked at all my sec1,2,3 friends' blogs .
ans suddenly felt so dumb & stupid .
why did i walked the wrong path ?
and the excitement in the past is all an illusion ..
so what if i regretted it ?
time wont turn back for an ordinary person like me ..
but how i wish it does
& i will be in a tertiary institution now
& keep in contact with all those friends instead of the ''bad'' ones ..
but to think of it ,i gained an experience that they never had ..
i once had the bad,so now i will have the best even in future ..





saw some bitch that made me disgusted .

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3 more weeks to the N level results !!!
pray hard that i did well .
GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE !! :D

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Guess what ?
i bought myself shoes again from the shoe shop im working at.
haven't get pay alr spent some of it . haha .
but the designs are unique though cos this brand is from Europe .
gonna be busy this whole week .
working alot of days & feeeling tired alr .
ytd sis called me ,i haven't met her in awhile .
was thinking of meeting her next week after i get my pay to go shop.
but next week im working 6 days !
cos of those irresponsible workers who nvr come the last min
& i have to help to cover .
and also saw alot of ppl whom i know =.=
but i guess i shall request one more day off .
cos next thurs is me & banana's 7th mth
WOW huh ?i didnt expect him to break my record of having the longest r/s for 7 mth.
haha . so thurs no work .
If sat also no work can meet sis (:
i need to buy a bag and maybe save up to buy a dog ?
cos i have all i need ..
okay i gotta stop here .
later gg work again (:
BYEBYE :D

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today's post is lame .
hello .
no work today .
so i went for facial .
freaking painful to feel the needles poking your face .
the beautician was my mum's fren
she was nice , after treatment all that .
she gave me samples of mask all that ..
im looking forward to pay day !!!
there are alot of things i wanna buy.
so have to decide quickly as well as save abit .
haha, okay im addicted to bubble tea & the pearls ! lol
i wanna cut my hair real soon,
wanna change my hairstyle cos im sick of this .
browsing through the internet for some hairstyles
but cant find any =.=
okay im gg to buy bubble tea bye !!! haha

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No work today ! :D
but im soooo bored at home .
just now they called and said tmr i will be working half day only .
how can they change it so suddenly ):
i wanna earn more $$$$ .
made a friend there cos she is the same age as me .
luckily she found this job or i will be stuck with ppl much older than me .
& those fucking foreign workers keep on doing construction.
using a fucked up hammer to knock .
SO NOISY ! arghhhhhh . nvr spare a thought for ppl sleeping .
nth to blog about alr =.=

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Hello !
this is the first time i like my job .
the boss is nice,the location is good & the ppl there are great (:
this sat im gg with lydia to an old folk's home to do volunteery work.
to kill time as well as to find the joy of helping others .
cos i want ppl to help me too when im old. LOL.
and also to add credit to my life haha
maybe in my next life i will have a better life .
i also sent the volunteer application form for SPCA.
really love dogs but don get to have them ):

& as for training ,im starting to like training .
but dono whether i will still continue after the lessons finish .
Muay thai really made an impact in my life ,
it was the one which made to change for the better .
and it was the first art & hobby that made me stay in it for 1year plus .
amazing huh ? cos usually im only interested in a thing for awhile .

As for friends,well i really felt that i neglected sis since i started studying .
she was really a great friend for 5 years ,
always being there for me ,
but didnt contact each other as much now.
although we have our things to be busy with,
but i hope our friendship is still the same.
although we may not contact as often now,
but the happy memories can never be erased or replaced (:
As for my other good friends , i wont forget you all !

As for r/s , it has been half a year .
time really flies & it has been a long time since i was with a guy for so long .
banana's a great bf :D
although we really have alot of quarrels since dono when ..
but i guess every prob can be solved as long as we work together .
who know what will happen it the future ?
but i just wanna say i really treasure the present (:
the memories he gave me will stay for as long as i live,
although we got our own things to stress about .
but i hope to share the burden with you and not adding .
faith,trust,commitment & love
these are the impt things & im sure i have all these (:
what about you ?

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YESTERDAY : 27 OCT 2008
me and banana's half a year together ! (:
hope we'll stay this way .

& i finally found a job !!!!
after so long of walking =.=
went to northpoint
by chance,i went to the new building and ask for a job .
they hired me ! its a shoe shop ,newly opened .
the ppl there are friendly .
and its so near to my home (:

today is a happy day :D

Hello !

18 oct

went to pulau ubin with him (:

on the bumboat which is damn noisy and cost only $2.50 each.

reached there after 10mins .the place is filled with mosquitoes .

cycled on the worst bicycle after that it rained ):

and we waited for it to stop in a little shelter .

took the bumboat back to changi then went to changi beach for awhile .

after that headed back home :D

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saw an email serene sent me ,

it says Oreo biscuits are filled with MAGGOTS

wtf !look at the pictures below .

beware & don puke xD

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Hello ! gonna post about yesterday ,13 oct 2008.
was damn fun ,went to east coast for our class bbq plus my birthday.
went cycling on the 2 seater bicycle.
cycled to bedok jetty !LOL .
serene & yvonne's bike is so noisy ! LOL !!!!
and its yvonne's first time cycling .haha .
reached there after like 30mins .
was so tired then headed back to the bbq pit .
Mr chew came ,haha and he waited for me to cut my cake before leaving .
and the BIBI took a charcoal and made my whole body dirty.
luckily not my face if not she die !!!!
then she took a piece of my choc peppermint cake and smash it on my face !
ARGH ! but luckily serene help me took revenge haha !
after that really played & everyone was tired .
so me,sis & banana went to somewhere to sit .
then yvonne & serene came to join us after awhile .
and GUESS WHAT !
me & yvonne saw sth like a SHOOTING STAR !!
its a pity its gone so fast but i still made a wish , haha .
after that i went home & banana acc me .
i opened my presents
banana gave me (Anna Sui ,purple perfume) which i wanted long time ago but couldn't find as it was limited edition !!! :DDDD
Sis gave me a black hoodie with nice designs ! i love it ! (:
yvonne & serene gave me before-hand (a monkey with boxing gloves & a black shirt ) haha the monkey looks cute (: okay my hand is getting tired from the typing . LOL so i shall let you all enjoy the photos below !!! :D