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HI ALL (:
back to blogging,
haven't been studying since the Eng paper .
& firstly ,i wanna thank my frens who cheer me up when i was down (:
thanks lydia for accompanying me (:
okay , so back to school next week.
gonna be boring cos its the same old thing ,revision again .
but no choice ,
not feeling well today ,got a bad cough .
next fri im planning to go Escape with him (:
it has been a long time since we went out .
well , i guess everything that happened
made my realise there will be ups & downs in life.
it depends on whether you handle your emotions well ,
sometimes i jus wish i could lose my memory & only rmb the happy times .
haha ,
okay thats about all ..
gonna sleep soon
GOOD NIGHT TO ALL :D

2 POSTS FOR TODAY !

MY BLOG'S SONG

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters,brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
'cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why i didn't show up sometimes
on sunday mornings and i miss you
But im glad we talked through
All them grown full things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
face to face

[ Chorus ]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As..time..goes..by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
And you never got the chance to
see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me
that I held so tight I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

hello

Yesterday went Escape with sis to forget our troubles.
okay & we played almost everything there .
but to no avail we still feel shagg after that .
the best was the Inverter & the Viking ship .
so thrilling that my heart dropped .
and at that moment nth was gg through my head except the feeling of thrill .
how i wish time would stop there .
then went to the haunted house .
and that ass hole who was wearing the ''ghost mask'' tried to scare us .
guess what ? i scolded him .so irritating .
then there is one when we felt that we were flying .
so when its time to go on,emotions came back again.
I just finished my 3 papers .
and luckily my Eng exams was the same topic as Prelims !
maybe this is life .
you gain one thing but lose another .
and what's done cannot be undone .

i have said whatever i wanted to say .
cos its so hard to keep it inside me
so bottled up as if there's a knot there that cant be untied .
its so sad to think that you have nobody to confide in .
i was jus thinking , just as i thought my life is getting better ,
its gone back to where i started now .
then things that happened are all things of the past.
if i keep on looking back,
i would be troubled & wose still,tired of living .
maybe my past life i was a very bad person
so retribution has come .
but the things that happened made me grow up .
and mrs teng had a chat with me ytd ,
she said if the other party was mature enough,he will accept it
but it takes time .
i know ,thats why im giving him time .
maybe cos my circle of frens in the past come across life experiences
and they feel thats is a norm thing .
but this time its diff ,
thats why i treasure it .
i wanna do sth to occupy myself now .
if not wild thoughts will be running through .
and whats the point ?
can my life be better if i moan about my life ?
No ....
I wanna be brave,but it may not be what it seem.
and she said too that focus on those who cares for me .
well , i don know ..
and i really feel very tired , i just wanna sleep and never wake up .
maybe to the end of whatever troubles i have ?

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HELLO !
so long since i blogged .
next week is the N levels alr
OMFGGG ,
today the school organised an ITE talk for us .
although its not applicable to me .
but i will still be worried of cos .
who wont ?
the stress is getting more & more each day .
and i really hope the whole class would go up to sec 5 next year .
or i'll be lonely ):
lols .
wish me all the best :D
haha .
and our 4th mth jus passed .
(:
hope we'll last for eternity (:

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Hello there !
so long since i blogged .
been busy mugging for exams .
its the same routine everyday,
study study & study .
siannnnnnn ...
im trying to squeeze info in my brain .
but my brain is feeling too lazy .
& i suddenly feel like getting a dog ,
you know ,for companionship etc ...
haha .
& i like the song on nurul's blog
LOL.im gonna find it !
okay im talking crap.
anyway nth much to blog about alr
BYE ALL (:

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wow tmr is National Day alr.
haha today sch is having celebrations so didnt went ..
yesterday met lydia for awhile to catch up on some stuff .
cos anyway she is the closest fren i have for so many years
LOL .
3 more days to Prelims ..
(:
and i did follow my schedule to study 1 or 2 subjects everyday .
okay i have nothing else to blog so bored ..
happy birthday singapore _!_ haha

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I did one quiz.
VERY TRUE !
LOL , go try it people !
& you can know all about your personality .
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx


Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

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Hello (:
tmr is another day at school.
& gonna see whether we gonna get our marks alr ..
today went for chinese tuition & the china teacher taught me damn well lor
haha, with her help sure will do much better for chinese.
cos the ong ah jit is not willing to help ? ..
one more week to Prelims .
omggg .
to my frens :
although it may be stressful,but never tell ourselves we cannot do it .
giving up halfway equals to failure (:
now is the time to put aside other things ,
& concentrate fully .
if sth is bugging you , you will not do as well ..
there will be obstacles in life for everyone.
& not all can be solved
but at least we tried & did our best (:

Some inspirational quotes from an email :
1) Dont compare yourself with anyone in this world .
If you comapre,you are insulting yourself .
2)Easy is to judge the mistakes of others
Difficult is to recognise our own mistakes
It is easier to protect your own feet with slippers
than to cover the Earth with carpet .
3)No one can go back & change a bad beginning
But anyone can start now & create a successful ending .

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this is the last post im writing bout all these small things .
there's no point to this argument
Im just wasting my precious time
BYEBYE ! (:

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OMFG .i heard that the bitch alr mark our project ,
seriously,the school is so unorganised lor .
If SHE had planned for us what to do everyday .
then people wont have to go at different pace .
First,HOD said extend deadline to wed
cos alot of ppl haven finish either their folio or presentation board .
and now i heard that the bitch grade us when we haven even finish ?
what the hell is going on man.
Yes,the sch deadline is on thurs ,but since it's alr extended
why must she still mark ?
Or is it cos she's unhappy about what we ''complained'' bout her ?
If this is really the case,she is very childish as a teacher & adult .
& to add on, she's married .
yet she don even have a single sense of maturity to handle problems well .
instead she is so called taking ''revenge''.
well i don not know the real reason.
But she have to responsibilty to explain why she mark it on thurs .
when actually the extended deadline is wed ?
and if they extend ,they shld say till its clear cut.
firstly,HOD said extend to wed the LAST DEADLINE .
so everbody naturally thought it would be marked on wed instead right ?
and if they wanna extend & let us continue with our work,
they shouldn't have any reason to argue that
it shld be marked on the sch deadline on thurs.
If that's the case , wanting to mark on thurs,
why give us extended deadline in the first place ?
and moe's gonna come moderate the marks.
What benefits does the bitch have in doing this ?
She can only feel happy that she got back at us for ''awhile'' right ?
the teachers are making us confused and worried.
we spent 8 fucking months to do this project .
and if SHE mark us down when
its not even the date of the extended deadline which is wed ,
we would seriously bear a grudge against her .

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HI !
woke up but didnt go to school .
completed my D&T project
FINALLY :D
But the bitch is gonna grade it .
luckily MOE ppl gonna come & moderate the marks .
yesterday everyhting went wrong .
cos of D&T lesson .
late for CH,late for Chem,
then in the end thrash things out with the d&t teacher ,
i guess we gotta work well together.
cos she's gonna be teaching me next year !
fuckkk ..!!!
but anyway bearing grudges is a torture to yourself .
so why not jus bear for one more year & get out of the school .
Today ,
Im not gg punch
gotta touch up on my project .
& studyyyyyyyyyyy ):
Studying everyday will make a person go crazy .
so gotta have some outdoor activities .
i wanna go Sentosa !
I miss playing volleyball after so many years not touching it.
& there's a tv show which keep tempting me to play it !
okay ..gotta go !!
im gonna watch some old chinese drama from channel 8
cos its too early .
& hear the obiang songs & see the ppl in the show
LOL
oh yes , i viewed a blog
lols ,bitches ''kah jiao wei'' bout you uh
haha i pity you ,
don even know anything bout wad ppl think bout you .
lol . Im not as CHILDISH as you (:
so i will keep my ''beautiful'' comments to myself (:

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I woke up at 8 am
fucking early lor O.O
& my exams are coming in 2 weeks time !
Im gonna have chinese tuition next week
cos my chinese teacher is so ''kind hearted''
that she don wanna teach me the words i don know .
But i prefer a china teacher ,
cos they are the best in Chinese i guess ?
& since im a Chinese ,
i should know my language (:
okay and i guess i have studied half way alr ?
after the exams,my uncle wants me to work in his company
to package the stocks .
In a way,its good cos he's my relative
& working hours are flexible
But on the other hand,I will be WATCHED !
cos ppl whom you know usually expects you to get everything right .
& i hate his nagging la .
im old enough to make my own decisions for god's sake .
well ,tmr is another boring day in sch,
gotta memorise another esaay ..
))):

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went out with yvonne & serene today (:
bought the haversack & hoodie :DD
walked till or legs were freaking numb
& guess wad ?
we went to Yoshinoya to rest but nvr bought anything.
LOL !!
I think ppl think we'r crazy .
then yvonne took ALOT of photos !!
haha (: enjoyed gg out with 'em :D
AFTER THAT EVERYTHING WENT WRONG !
&& Im fucking pissed off now la
shouldnt have went to my uncle's house
nobody talked to me ..
& my uncle just gave me wine to drink .
then THEY said ''don go outside drink so much .better be more ''zi dong'' ''
FUCK LA !
what the hell is wrong ?
i didnt wanna go there at first,
but when i went there all i get is ppl saying bad things about me.
So wad if i used to drink last time ?
So wad if YOU ALL know i smoked ?
is it a fucking big deal ?!!!
HEY IM YOUR NIECE OKAY
MUST YOU LIKE TO ME LIKE IM A CRIMINAL !?
then my cousins brought their BOYFRIENDS THERE .
& my mum said ''see la they all bring their bf leh,ask yours to come la ''
fuck la ,so my mum asked him
& he still didnt want.
HEY it is my mum who asked you okay .
i know you don like these kind of gatherings .
so its my fault to irritate you again by asking once more lor.
Guess why i reach home so early ?
cos i cant fucking stay there anymore.
NO ONE talks to me.
NO ONE bothers
& all they say is how i was LAST TIME .
FUCK IT .

Im having mood swings lately ,
maybe because of the upcoming exams.
Its hard to control one's emotions .
But i know i cant let my emotions control me.
I get irritated at the slightest things .
jus now he called me ,
his fren said sth.
& i really felt irritated .
Its like suddenly I want everyone
to shut the fuck up & let me have peace .
but im being self-centered like that ..
Its hard not to feel anything .
or maybe my emotions are changing now & then .
It may be my fault that im born this way ,
but im really so stressed up *&^%$@!
i know if i did study,i wont have to worry .
But my case is diff from others,
i alr wasted 2 fucking years .
and i cannot afford to lose more time anymore !
& i seriously regretted wasting time
the other thing is,
teachers are putting more & more pressure on us .
& some teachers are putting high hopes on me .
My brain is like gonna explode !
I need my own space now .
seriously ,i need to be alone .
so ppl who talked to me today may be offended by me .
but pls don come and irritate me
or i dono what will happen ..
SIGHHHHHH ):

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YOYO !
woke up at ard 8plus in the morning .
damn early right ?!
then went to study Chemistry ,
time really flies ..
Im left with two more weeks to Prelims .
Im so booooreeddd at home ):
look through some friendster bulletins ,
& saw this :
What does your name says about you ?
TRY IT ! :D
A : You are hot.
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D : You like to eat.
E : You like to play with cats.
F : You are dead sexy.
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You have a very good personality and good looks.
I : Easy to be with.
J : People Adore you.
K : You're wild and crazy.
L : Everyone loves you.
M : Best kisser ever.
N : Best bf/gf anyone could ask for.
O : Easy to fall in love with.
P : You are popular with all types of people.
Q : You are a hypocrite.
R : You're loyal to those you love.
S : Fuckin crazy.
T : Awesome kisser.
U : You really like to chill.
V : Awesome in bed.
W : You are very broad minded.
X : You love sports.
Y : Best bf/gf anyone could ask for.
Z : Always ready.

My name:
C : You are really silly. ( oh yeah ?)
H : You have a very good personality and good looks. (awwww xD)
E : You like to play with cats. (NO ! =.=)
L : Everyone loves you. (I hope so !! )
S : Fuckin crazy. ( Yeah totally !)
I : Easy to be with. (Depends )
A : You are hot. ( WOW O.O )

hello

Today was damn tiring .
woke up 10 am in the morning
& i slept at 1plus am cos of training .
went to Woodlands library with Yvonne & Serene
to meet Ms suganthi .
then we couldn't find any space there .
so went to the cafe .
Teacher taught us two topics alr .
so good right ,i guess its hard to find this
kind of teacher who sacrifice their weekends to teach us .
then after Ms suganthi left ,
actually we wanted to catch a movie .
but there was limited choices =.=
so walked ard Causeway point ..
and bought doughnuts .
It was nice lor ..
While walking ,we were talking about class & all ,
haha even about kah hwa too
LOL =X
then went back to Khatib to meet him for dinner
& now im back here blogging (:
Today was a fruitful day cos i studied !!
haha

yoyo

Hello everyone !
I woke up in the morning ,
but didnt go to school.
too tired already,
somemore first lesson is Chinese with the ''AH JIT'' .
LOL .
But i still like Chinese although we got a sucky teacher .
guess what im doing now ?
studying for Chemistry O.O
lols .
this is the first time im studying
at home so early in the morning .
later going Punch (:
3 weeks didnt go already ,
kinda miss training .
but i guess i will be dead meat .
cos my stamina is getting worse O.O
haha , okay gonna go study already
Good luck to my friends except ''someone'' for N's
& lets go sec5 together (:
:DDDDDDDDDDDD

hi

Just came back from school .
later going for night class again ,
well well .
some people are just so childish
*tsk tsk tsk
sec 4 already still dono how to think for herself .
hahaha
* YOU are blogging about me & the rest i guess ?
use so many vulgarities
when some of them is copied from others
& your English sucks okay ?!
'EXPECT' SPELLED AS 'ESPECT'
HAHA !
& you claimed we were once close ?
OMFG. you're the one who wanna stick to me man !
im not so thick skinned lor =.=
Let me get things right first :
Do you even know the whole class hate you?
LOL !
so dumb to even think you still have friends .
They just don wanna hurt your ''small little heart ''
HAHA .
haha i don wanna be a hypocrite so i will voice out everything here
Its my blog so i have the rights just like what you did .
the first thing is
Do you even know you best sister don really like you ?
''everytime borrow $$$ from ppl didnt return''
thats what i heard .
In class ,ppl are studying so PLS SPARE A THOUGHT FOR OTHERS
DON scream with a such an annoying high pitch voice everytime .
makes everyone irritated .
then LOVE to take advantage of others
especially when it comes to $$$$
& heard that you love to copy people
pls la ,have your OWN STYLE MAN .
*TSK TSK TSK
I PITY YOU LOR .
COS EVERYONE THINKS YOU'RE CHEAPSKATE
HAHA
I don wanna continue anymore
cos there is just too many things.
JUST THINK ,
IF YOU ARE REALLY SUCH A NICE GIRL ,
HOW COME EVERYONE HATES YOU ?
& pls look at your own attitude.
IT SUCKS FOR GOD'S SAKE !
and do you think we really love to look at you ?
LOL
do you think you're MISS UNIVERSE ?
haha WE HAVE NICER THINGS TO LOOK AT LA !
or maybe cos they wanna look at your ''lovely'' lips ma .
PLS DO SOME SELF REFLECTION BEFORE YOU SAY OTHERS .
CHILDISH BITCH :D

hello

Guess what im doing now ?
my D&T COURSEWORK !
WTF ! still need to type out all that
but no choice,its my marks .
Oh yes , and i wonder whats wrong being good again ?!
I was doin my D&t in school.
then my friend in sec 5 came talked to me .
He said :''How come you doing you work ?
you've become so auntie already leh !
you changed alot from last time till now
last time was ******* (gang poem ) =.=
anyway i know you sure can go sec5
but by then you are alr 18 years old leh !!''
FUCK MAN !
whats wrong with taking O levels at 18 .
whats wrong with doing work ?
whats wrong with BECOMING GOOD AGAIN ?!
WELL, anyway im not gonna fuck care (:
I shouldn't let words from ppl affect me
cos they are just words .
FOR PPL WHO ARE CONCERNED ABOUT PPL'S WORDS :
Let me tell you ,
i've been through much more back stabbing than this
and the things they say were worse .
but who cares ?
JUS BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
& YOU KNOW ITS NOT TRUE.
DON LET PPL'S WORDS AFFECT
YOU AS THEY'RE JUST WORDS.
JUST KNOW THAT THEY'RE JEALOUS OF YOU .
AND LET THEIR WORDS MAKE YOU STRONGER
& NOT WEAKER
IF NOT YOU WILL BE
THE ONE LOSING OUT IN THE END
TRUST YOUSELF AS YOU DECIDE YOUR OWN LIFE !! (:

hello

Today is Youth Day .
another boring day at home ..
im looking forward to school ?
lol !
& im caught with a flu.
omfg . so irritating ..
& i realised i havent been gg training for 2 weeks alr !
cos of school ..so tired ):
but im gonna go this friday (:
cos training keeps me fit
haha !!
i wanna have a muscular body with six packs
LOL ! i would look damn alien-ish .
& my eng oral was just over .
PHEW!
but i guess i didnt do as well as i expected .
i had a mental block in the middle .
& i was doing the picture part.
wtf man ,sad lorrr .. )):
totally forgot what i wanted to say .
but anyway luckily i tried to pulled myself up
in the conversation part .
well ,whats done cannot be undone.
now,i just have to concentrate on the rest .
cos im sure i wanna take O levels next year !
or it will be so wasted . (2years) =.=